Stalled and feeling thankful

I have been on quite the stall... caused by me eating quite the carbs lately. I have been also feeling quite depressed about it, obsessing over it and what not. The other day this gal who I work with (who doesn't particularly like me) came up to me out of the blue and said "I noticed that you have lost some weight, you must have a lot of discipline". I was blown away. This coworker is larger herself and doesn't normally throw around compliments. I said thank you and she said she also noticed how when we all went out to pizza the other day and I chose to eat my tuna, that she was amazed by my willpower. That really made me think... I could have easily eaten pizza instead, I had VG and can eat whatever I like and not get sick at this point. I am not perfect. I have had all the "bad" foods. I do sometimes eat dessert. I do sometimes have a bag of chips, but still, I am making better choices. Then the coworker asked what the best part of losing weight was, and said "if I were you, I would stand in the mirror all day and look at myself"... I could honestly tell her that no, actually my body looks not so great under the clothes and the best part is MY HEALTH. I can now walk and not feel out of breath, I can engage in activities and FEEL GOOD and not like I was about to die. I am SO THANKFUL that I had this surgery, I am thankful that I am TRYING to change my life for the better, I am thankful that I am more healthy. I am thankful that even though I am not perfect, I have this tool and can LEARN to be (at least when it comes to nutrition). Sorry, I did not expect to be so long winded, but felt the need to share... I hope this helps anyone who is feeling like a failure... because NONE OF US ARE. We are doing terrific. I could have never been where I am today with out you guys, and with out WLS. Take Care, Mary

Mary, I hope you have a good time on your vacation. YOu are doing great w/ your weight loss. We all stall out from time to time. You usually seem to make pretty good choices. YOu're probably not losing as much because you're getting closer to goal. It's pretty normal to slow down. I have 9 more days to take off this 2.7 lbs. to get to 199 by my birthday. I'm glad I have good knives now, I may have to chop it off! Karla 337/202/150

Hey Mary! I am totally with you and understand exactly how you are feeling. Maybe it is something in the air but, this past weekend, I was really stressed out about my weight loss and how far I have to go still, etc. And I also considered the weekend a *very* bad eating weekend for me. I had half a mini-bagel with egg and cheese and then for lunch I had about 3/4 of a tiny slice of pizza. Dinner was sushi with the rice. As I lay in bed that night, I could actually feel my heart racing with anxiety over what I had "done!" Once you start stressing it is hard to stop...but I do realize how silly my anxiety was. I mean...pre-WLS a "bad" eating day for me would have been 20x the amount of food I ate on Sunday! I did not gain weight from anything I ate and, I, too, am feeling so incredibly thankful for this surgery! It is great that your co-worker took the time to call you and say those things to you! You are doing wonderfully and I am sure everyone at your job sees it! Stalls are the pits but you will get to where you want to be! It is just unfortunate that the closer we get, the harder it is to get there...but I guess that's just the way it goes! Have a great day, Mary! You are beautiful and successful and I am glad that you are feeling better about things! Hugs, Jersey

Hello Mary. Let me first start off by saying thank you. I thought I was the only one dealing with these problems. So thanks again for posting. This past weekend and Monday I have made the worst food choices since my surgery. I felt trapped in my old habits and extremely frightened that I was going back to my old ways. I taked to Dawn about it yesterday (love ya hon) and I figured out a few reasons why Im back to eatting the "crap". But after reading your post, I realized it was just an excuse. I make my own choices. I need to be the one in control, just because everyone else is eatting pizza and cake doesnt mean I have to as well. I do see that the occasional pizza and chip wont make me gain. But I need to learn to make better choices. Im so proud off you and think you look wonderful. Keep up the great work. Much luv, kristi

Hi Mary, I agree 100%! at 9 months out today the hunger has returned, and stressing about how much I eat started to really impact my anxiety levels. Your post cemented what has been lurking in the small corners of my mind. I think I am afraid I will become complacent about all of this. The success, the shopping, and most importantly the ability to LIVE! walking is fun again- crossing my legs is a gift, and now I can't wait to get up in the morning and get moving! I feel blessed. and so thankful for the ability to share these feelings with all of you. Make it a great day- healthy and happy. cj