BAD CHOICES

The flames by my post title are for myself. I went off my diet this weekend. Bad, bad, BAD choice. I decided I just needed 3 days of freedom, and I was on vacation. I grazed. I ate junk. I tolerated it all. I overate. I went over my caloric limits. I induldged in carbs. I feel physically ill still. I feel emotionally ashamed. It taught me that was not freedom. It was giving food control over my life again. I am sorry I did it... but it made me learn my lesson. There are blessings in all things and hopefully I will not go back to trying to give myself "freedom" like that anymore. I am ok with it all now. I have come to peace and I have put it behind me. It was a mistake and it is over. Back to healthy eating once again. I have at least 45 pounds more to go. My goal is to reach that by Christmas. It is finally a number that I look at and think that maybe reaching goal is obtainable. When I was SMO I felt there was no way ever that I would be able to get down to a healthy weight. Now, I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like I could lose that on my own with diet and excerise and that is what I plan on doing; all while using my TOOL. I am not able to eat large quantities all at once, but I can sure pack it in when grazing through out the day. This weekend scared me. At the same time it motivated me a bit too. ~Mary

Mary, I went through the same thing this weekend. I'm scared to death to get on the scale. As of this morning the scale hadn't moved. I'm hoping it doesn't *show up on the scale tomorrow morning. Like you, I feel ill with the amount of carbs that I ate this weekend. Very few things make me sick, which makes it worse for me to eat what I want. It did show me that when I get put into stressful situtations -- I turn to old habits. This is something I will work on. Susan

Ummm, the first step is to realize we are not on a diet. That is what got us into trouble before. If you are on a diet you can go off the diet. It is a change of life style. Food is fuel. Sometimes it is high is sugar, but it is fuel and needed for life. But if you are not dieting, you didn't go off the diet. Know that the choices could be better and that it is not something you want to continue, but we are living life. Life includes vactions. Life includes that chocolate cake. Did you even eat anywhere near what you use to eat? Did you eat 5000 calories per day? Or did you eat 2000 calories, which is what is normal. Don't beat yourself up. Yes your body is reacting badly to it, but that is part of our new life. Take a deep breath and start new with the food you choose next. In the old days you would probubly say "screwed up, wont work, have failed, mine as well keep eating this bag of chips" But we really don't do that anymore. It is alright to live like normal. We will have to do that the rest of our lives. So remember the great time you had on vacation and don't let the food ruin it, that is the old way.

Hey Mary, we all make bad choices from time to time. I've eaten a little more in the past 2 days, but haven't gone hog wild with it. I know tomorrow is another day, and back to the normal routine. You're going to eat a little more from time to time, just make sure it is only occasionally. I went to breakfast at McDonalds for the first time today. I was a very bad girl too, and had a sausage cheese biscuit and only ate 1/2 the biscuit. It did taste good. I stole 2 little bites of my son's hashbrown. When we were leaving, I thought, I'm already getting a little nauseous. In the old days, I would have scarfed down the whole biscuit, a whole hashbrown, and a big regular coke. I could have made a better choice. I also ate 1/2 of a mini bag of popcorn this afternoon! On well, tomorrow is another day. Karla

Mary: There must have been something in the air today! I, too, fell off the healthy eating bandwagon. I had people over and served the usual chips/dips, etc. I had several Fritos and Doritos...I ate some of my macaroni salad (small serving). Then I had a big hunk of crumb cake! I was not feeling too awful until the crumb cake! For some reason, I do not feel overly ashamed about this...but, when I see the scale tomorrow, then it will probably hit me. We can just vow to do much better in the future! I have about 40 lbs to lose, myself...and I have the same goal as you...I want to be there by Christmas! I will definitely have to make much wiser choices in the future if I want to make it! But we will! Today was just....baaad! Here's to a better week! Love and hugs, Jersey

Dude, Jersey's right! I ate a whole small bag of doritos today!!! Just grazing... my caloric intake wouldn't have been so bad if i hadn't eaten them.. but it was Labor Day!!! Ugh.... Back on the wagon tomorrow

Yeah, I ate a whole snack bag of doritios too AND two grandma cookies AND a whole hell of a lot more. But those were the two biggested offenders. Oh, and the Reeces p.butter cup. Ugh. On a good note, today has been back on track like normal.

Ladies, something's in the air!! This past weekend, I was eating a little off kilter myself. I kept telling myself that the next day I would stop, but come the next day....the same thing would happen!!! But this week is a new week, so I need to get over it. I think it was Kristi H. that said we are not on a diet, and she's right. We made a lifestyle change for the better. We are eating how normal people should and they aren't necessarily on a diet! By saying that, we set ourselves up for failure. I have cake once in a blue, eat a cookie, a bite of fried fish or chicken. I just do it in moderation. I didn't have this surgery to be abnormal by any means and I think because of that I still really enjoy food. And I'm hardly ashamed by it! Food is not my enemy...food is my friend. Have a good night ladies! April

I totally agree! Dana

Me too, I was awful this weekend. I am back on the wagon, it gave me motivation to walk 3 miles