The biggest change for my christmas this year might have been what I asked Santa for. A scale, thats right something to weigh myself on. I wanted one of those digital ones that keeps track and tells me my body fat and water weight. Man last year I never would have wanted that, I would have been offended if I got one. I also asked for gym close and a few other gym related items. Thats the crazy new me Jenn

This weekend I spent several hours talking with a woman in a wheelchair who was the most extremely obese person I have ever seen outside of a TV documentary. She had diabetes, high BP, edema, pain, all of it. I mentioned that I had been in a similar state 11 months ago, and she asked what I did to change things so quickly. I told her the whole story. Funny thing was, as I told the story, I re-lived it with all the pain, fear, and agonizing, again. I was in tears at one point. I had forgotten about the frightening asthma attack in the hospital, the first vomit ( I thought I was going to die for sure), and a lot of the scary stuff. I guess we just naturally remember the good stuff like trying on clothes a size smaller than last month, or wearing a sexy blouse tucked in for the first time, or getting a whoo hoo from a guy. The poor lady is too frightened of doctors and surgery to even consider it ( her mom died of the same problems at age 42****pt thinking " There, but for the grace of God go I". How blessed I am. My hubby has lost 66 lbs. and I have lost 115 lbs. We have energy and our health again, thank God. My New Year's resolution this year will NOT be"lose weight"for a change. It will be "try to be more thankful for the good things I have!"

Congrats Jennifer on the weight loss. i will be 1 yr post-op Jan 5th 2006 and I am down 144 lbs gone 4-ever. I am happy for you and keep up the good work. Have a great day. Misty

Diane, Thanks for your words of wisdom. Sometimes I have found I eat more at work out of boredom and because it is sitting there. I am in a 2 now and don't htink that I will get much smaller but I noticed a little snugness in my jeans today. I am glad that someone is shrinking! Tomorrow will be a better and new day. Thanks Becki

Thanks Jamie, As always you are an inspiration! I will do better, I just am so afraid of the way I have found myself eating all of the time. Although I have not eaten sugar or fried foods I have eaten plenty of crackers, pretzels, cheese popcorn and tortilla chips which are just as bad. I even find myself eating protien bars when I am not hungary which I never am. I have to get into control. Thanks again Becki