Reclaimed teenage years!!!!!

Today I went to the beach and got a tan. What is so amazing about that, you ask? The amazing part is that I had never done it before in my life. When my friends were going to the beach in the seventies, rocking to the Stones and making giant peace signs in the sand, I was home in my room practicing my flute. Now don't get me wrong; I loved practicing and it got me two scholarships to college. BUT, I would like to have gone along a couple of times and shared the fun. Alas, my weight (and my very sensitive, porceline white skin) prevented me. TODAY, I put on GOBS of skin protector(after having started a slow tan in the backyard weeks ago), pulled my top down and tanned! Yes, folks....I have a beautiful golden tan(and little burn on my shoulders..but oh well). My husband put a CD he burned of my favorite songs on the car CD player and cranked it up LOUD!!! I sipped my water and thought BLISS!!!!! I now know what I missed in my teens. Oh, the glorious feeling of lying nearly naked on a beach and feeling no embarrassment at my size and shape! I had my toes perfectly pedicured and my little gold and diamond ankle braclet on. Tres Chic! I even had on sequined flip flops! Giggle!! Hubby is losing so much his swimsuit nearly fell off (yeah!) Next time we will make tropical protein shakes with rum to take with us and grill veggies on the tailgate. Woo Hoo!!!

Such a wonderful feeling!!! The confidence that was once lacking because of feeling insecure about our bodies as teens has gone bye-bye. No more unsexy frocks that cover...we can step out in the sun, dressed in sparkles, feeling beautiful. I look forward to going down to the shore with my boyfriend... I want to walk around in a cute bathing suit, be held and loved out in public as a normal couple. I don't have to feel sorry for people's ugly looks, because who would want to go with someone so big? I am happy for you both, and your story has given me wonderful ideas about what I'd like to do this summer with my honey bunny :D