Adjusting to my new real world

I am so confused sometimes. I feel as if I am between worlds...no longer a fat girl, but certainly not a skinny mini either. I sometimes say things that used to be acceptable around big women...women I used to be WAY bigger than..and now I get looked at funny. I made the BIG MISTAKE of offering this one girl the cute clothes that no longer fit and I think she took it as an insult...Damn! I don't know what to do sometimes..I don't know what I look like...maybe if I see someone as tall and with the same measurements I can get a better idea. I weigh the same now as I did when I was 17...can't complain if I don't loose another ounce...so whatever weight I end up at I'll be just as happy then as I am now. I just feel a little lost sometimes. The men talk to me in a strange tone...no longer are they addressing a matronly woman (without children ;) ) but someone they might like to sleep with...thank goodness I have a boyfriend! The women I used to hang out with who are still big, no longer speak to me in the same way, and the one's who wouldn't talk to me because I freaked them out, accept me without a problem..but I have a problem with that ....with both things to be honest! Time to visit a therapist...'cause I got alot on my plate, lol!

It's an adjustment, but an exciting journey, isn't it?! Congtatulations on all your hard work! Blessings, Carolyn

True..I'm very happy about the weight loss...it's adjusting to the way society views me now. A college campus is pretty enclosed...you see the same faces often...and those same people address me differently than they did a year ago. Thank goodness, not all of them...and for that I am glad. I still feel uneasy...I'm still finding myself, and trying to adjust to things I never thought about having to deal with post-op.