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I have started losing again. Finally! I am at 183 and dropping. My goal of 160 is in sight, at last. Unfortunately, my blood sugar is up again, damn it! I thought we had lost the diabetes for good three weeks after surgery. So, back on meds and stupid blood checks! YUK!!! Also, I am suffering from a severe depression that requires meds. that make me sleepy ALL THE TIME!! I am on three weeks of medical leave, but my job is in the toilet. Thank God my hubby works and makes good $$. Still, now we have to give up Disney World vacation that we promised the kids for next Christmas. And a house is out of the question. Part of me is totally glad to be not going back to teaching. I have given 25 years. I am really burned out. I just don't know what else to do?!! Oh well, enough of my pity party!

Sorry to hear things are so rough for you right now. Just remember that you never get more than you can handle. You are being tested for a reason, and although you might not know that reason yet it will show it's face in the future. I hate my job right now too. I feel I am not being used to the best of my ability. I wish I could quit but we just bought a house, and leased a new van so I have to continue to work at this point. Suzanne 300/153/150

Thanks for your kind words. It is so hard to hate your job and still keep going because of bills. Maybe we will win the lottery! LOL! If I win, I'll split it with you. If you win, you split with me. HA!

I am sorry you are feeling so low. I tend to lurk around here but I have always found your posts inspiring. You are a very special person. It comes across in your posts. You will make it through this. The skills you have as a teacher can be used in many different fields. I understand feeling burned out. I am a choral music and drama teacher here in VA(17 out of the last 20years). I left teaching for two years in the late 90's. I did student travel. Made a decent salary, but found out I really did miss teaching. I went back in 2000. Take a break...work anywhere you feel like you can tolerate it--or if you can handle it just relax. It will get better! You may even want to teach again someday. As for the meds for depression...it really is ok. They really helped, trust me! My husband of 17 years walked out 3 months before my surgery. I went through the surgery, a divorce, and a bankruptcy in 2005. (I have sole custody of two teenagers.) I don't think I would have made it without the meds. But I also had wonderful posts from wonderful people like you to keep me smiling and hoping for the future. So if there is anything I can do to help you let me know. Lisa

Your kind words really lifted my spirits. It is nice to hear from someone who has been there and survived. The meds are helping. I have an interview(follow up) for a new teaching job that is much better. Cross your fingers. If I don't get it, I am going to sub part time for a year. Then, when I get a school that really sucks, I can just walk out at the end of the day and say "Never again". BTW, I have another job that is VERY satisfying(pay is good, but part time). I live for that job and, of course, my babies and hubby. Hubby has lost 85 lbs. so far after 7 months.

Lou Ann, Hang in there with the anti-depressants. The sleepiness is very common when you first go on them but it will pass. Your body just has to get used to processing them. As for your job, can you take an extended medical leave for the rest of this year with the option of returning to your job in the Fall? By then you'll be feeling better and may be ready to get back in the classroom. Good luck and hope you'll be feeling better soon! Vickie J.

you big loser I hope you lose so much it is all a dream WE WERE NEVER FAT!!!! Say it with me we have always been FREAKIN Hotties