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Hey Everyone, I thought I would post here for some support.... I am almost 11 months out now and I have lost a total of 133 pounds which is a great accomplishment. But I have been 167 since Thanksgiving. I started a new job in November and I am more active at my job which allows me more walking, and lifting but I can't seem to get the weight off. I am even drinking more water too. I had myself on a routine when I was not working of eating every couple of hours to keep my metabolism up. I still try to do that but some days it just does not work out that way. I am really frustrated with this. I have not taken any sweets or treats because of the holidays either. I am totally okay with just sitting back and letting other people eat that sweet stuff. The only difference I have noticed lately is with fruit. I can't seem to get as good of fruit this time of year so I am really limited with what fruit I do eat. I went from a size 26/28 to a size 14 in this short amount of time. I know I should be so proud of myself but why are my emotions taking over and beating myself up because I can't seem to lose these last 17 pounds that I need to lose. Even if I lost a pound a week I would be happy. Especiallys since I am more active during the day. The fat brain has come out and has been beating me up about this. On top of all of this I met with my PS last month and the only surgery he could do for me is the breast lift. And he said there are not alot of surgeons in the area that do a thigh lift. I would rather have that first instead of the tummy tuck. I have more of an issue with my thighs than anything. My WLS only does the tummy tuck too. He told me that it may not even be approved because of the fact that I do not have a hernia. What a bummer huh? Thanks for letting me vent. I just don't know what to think or do. Is anyone else going through anything similiary since it is so close to our one year mark? Suzanne 300/167/150

Hey Suzanne, Congratulations on your success so far....you look fantastic!! I don't have a lot of advice to give you, only wanted to let you know you're not alone in how your emotions are running right now. I also went through a period where I was beating myself up and almost bordering on being ungrateful about the accomplishment I made with my surgery. I got so consumed about numbers....on the scale, the size tags of my clothes, etc, they weren't were I "thought" I should be. I was upset because I'm still in a 14 (started out at 26/3XL) even though I'm exercising and eating good. I wanted to be like others on the board who are a size 8 or smaller or who got close to goal really quickly. I finally had to find a place of acceptance that my journey is not going to be the same as others.....there are certain physiological things about my health history (having PCOS, being obese since a young age and living that lifestyle for 3/4 of my 41 years, being genetically predisposed for obesity & diabetes, etc) that make me different from someone else who does not have those factors. So it's understandable that I may not lose as fast or that my body fat % is on the high end of the normal range. It doesn't change the fact that I want things a certain way...I'm just learning to be thankful for where I am today and that I am not existing in a morbidly obese body anymore. I'm off glucophage and blood pressure pills and my blood pressure is normal for the first time since high school!! My cholesterol reading was 142 at my 6 month checkup...it's never been that low! I'm still working on trying to reach goal and hopefully one day getting into something smaller than a size 14, but if it doesn't happen then I'm a thousand times better off than where I was a year ago. Don't be so hard on yourself and take an inventory of the little successes you've made along the way. You're doing great. Hope you find some peace with your head and emotions...it's hard but you can do it! Take care! Mary Ellen 280/163/160

Thanks for the words of encouragement. It is definately hard. The emotions get you sometimes. I am beating myself up right now to because for the first time since I had the surgery I am back to work. And my eating schedule is off. I just need to adjust it to my new schedule. It can be so rough. I am trying to get in as many fruits and veggies I can a day since those are so vital. I hope you have a Merry Christmas. And congrats on your accomplishment. Suzanne 300/166/150