I'm so upset with my self

I really need some good advice and help with this. I have totally fell off the wagon. I eat all the wrong things, some nights all I want to do is eat. It seems like I am snacking on something every 10 minutes. I just have not been following the rules at all. I know what I need to do, but its like my mind has took control and I don't know how to get it to do what I need it to do. (I know I sound crazy) Well I feel like I'm going crazy too. I keep having to switch my birthcontrol and antidepressants because nothing is working right. I feel so bad because I'm always getting so angry at my 2 year old daughter. I keep falling asleep on the couch in the evenings, I just can't seem to sit down and not fall asleep now. I'm just so drained all the time. I was doing so good exercising all the time. I haven't even exercised at all this week yet. I've lost 91.5 lbs so far, I finally got to see onederland, but I can't seem to stay there or go and lower. I just feel my weightloss is so much slower than everyone else, and I feel like a failure. I just hate to think I went through such a risky procedure just to fail and it.

I think Kate is right. you need to get to the root b4 you can worry about all other stuff. I will pray everything goes well for you

I have to agree with Kate on the you own it and now you can do something about it. One thing to keep in mind with rapid weightloss at an obese or super obese level is that for women the estrogen is stored in the fat... when the fat goes, some of the estrogen is dumped back into the blood stream, creating utter havoc with our moods and cycles. Stay low-carb/high protein as much as possible -- just don't bring the carbs into the house and eat your protein first and STOP GRAZING Follow your doctor's orders for meals and snacks (if you're allowed snacks). I had to start making myself eat breakfast at a reasonable hour, or I'd begin grazing, too. As for the amount of weight you've lost -- YOU'RE DOING FABULOUS!!!! I've only lost 90 pounds and feel like a slow loser, too -- but like my doc says, it's not about how fast but ultimately how much you lose and keeping it off -- that's the key -- the keeping it off part and we have a tool for life -- you can choose to use it or not -- I pray to all that I don't forget how to use my tool for life, ever! (((skinny hugs))) Wendyb -90

I agree with everything else that has been said, but must tell you you are definitely not as slow a loser as some others, me included. I have only lost 60 lbs. I eat properly but absolutely NO exercise and I know that is a killer for me. Good luck. Lynne

hello pamela well its a great thing that your reaching out and aware...have you ever tried o.a.? overeaters anonymous(sp?)? good luck hun. hope it gets better. julie k

I agree with what everyone else has said thus far sweetie. You can do it girl! Just pick a day and start fresh. Everytime I fall off the wagon (and I have) I just start fresh in the morning. And your current weight loss so far is right at where I am at girl, so you are doing winderful! Brightest Blessings for a Wonderful Day~ Jamie M. aka Lady Autumn Weight- 257/162/146 BMI- 44.1/27.8/25 Height- 5'4" Total Weight Loss: -95 lbs. Surgery Date- 1/19/05 Visit my OH profile or stop by My Weight Loss Journey Website at: home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-LadyAutumnsWLSjourney Visit my Live Journal at: livejournal.com/users/magickalmom

I agree with what everyone else has posted and just want you to know that you're not alone. I know how you feel as I'm also dealing with an increase in appetite, snacking and at times making poor food choices. Please see your doc about your meds and make sure you're attending some type of support group meetings. Good luck sweetie....you'll be okay. Keep posting and let us know how you're doing. We care! Mary Ellen 280/255/180/160