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:crazzy: I think i am goin nuts. I am waering a size 9-10 and well I feel great but.... When anyone tells me i am skinny I just dont see it!! I was 18-20 I know in reality I have come so far but...when I look in thed mirror I dont see it I mean " I really DON'T see It" I just wan't to know is this how it is for some or am I nuts :shurgs:

You are not alone. I am experiencing the same things. My doctor said it is similar to anorexics. They think they are fat when they look in the mirror, but others see them as starvation skinny. They are fat in their head. That is the one that matters;the head. Ours will resolve when our head catches up to our body. Give it time. Also, talk with me anytime you feel like that. I understand completely! Everyone tells me I look so skinny, but I can barely see the difference. Doc says these things help: 1. Compare before and after pics everyday. 2. When negative thought occur, chase them away with rehearsed positive lines like: "I have lost 82 lbs. and wear a small size 14." "I used to be large, but I am getting smaller, little by little, every day."

I hear ya! I'm doing the same thing. I went out today to look at clothes, didn't buy anything. I was in total shock when I fit into a size 10. Clothes looked awful on me until I went smaller. When I look in the morror, I am still fat. I keep wondering if that will ever go away. Dianne

Yeah, I call it "fat head" syndrome! I still see myself as a "big girl" even though I am wearing a 10/11! I shop in the juniors and misses section of any store and usually get a medium. I know I was NEVER this small in my adult life yet I still see myself as big. Heck I am a member of a "big beautiful women" online group even though I am one of the smallest folks on there because I still self-identify as a big girl and I think that I always will. Folks tell me all of the time that I am so skinny but I just do not associate that word with myself. I "see" that I am smaller than I have ever been but I still do not think that I am skinny. Maybe it is because of my bone structure? I have a large frame, I always will, and I have always seen it as an asset. The thing that bothers me the most is the extra skin. It causes my clothes not to fit the way I would like so I wear a girdle everyday or I feel extremely self-conscious. I can't wait to get down to where I want to be just so that I can start "maintaining" and get myself ready to have PS. I have been doing research for about 3 weeks now and I finally got two new books that I have to read on PS. Is it totally sick to be this excited about going under the knife again? I mean my extra skin is not half as bad as most WLS patients but it is something that really turns me off.... And if my own body turns me off why should I expect to turn anyone else on? KWIM? The thing that really worries me about the extra skin is the hygiene stuff. My pits stink like something fierce anytime I do any amount of sweating since my bat wings are so bad. I put on my bullet proof vest the other day and wore it to the range and by the time I got home that flap of skin at the "bra line" had popped out of the vest and rubbed raw, so did my bat wings, and the top of my thighs got all rubbed and irritated by my leg holster. (Yes, my degree is in Police Science so I am getting myself ready to be able to function on the job... getting back to the range, learning to move with my armor again, getting into shape, etc...) So I know that I really have to get this stuff taken care of surgically, it is not something I am going to be able to put off once I get into a job at our new duty station. Oye... I do not mean to dump on you people but I have no one else to talk to right now... Brightest Blessings for a Wonderful Day~ Jamie M. aka Lady Autumn Weight- 257/169/146 BMI- 44.1/29/25 Height- 5'4" Total Weight Loss: -88 lbs. Surgery Date- 1/19/05 Visit my OH profile or stop by My Weight Loss Journey Website at: home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-LadyAutumnsWLSjourney Visit my Live Journal at: livejournal.com/users/magickalmom

yupperz that is how I feel!!! I think you can dump on me anytime but... It may take me a lil while to get back I have three kids and two step children and with the hubby that makes 6 so I am always on the go but you have my yahoo and I will be here for you any time