Backsliding

For the last 4 weeks I feel like a failure. I have continued to lose weight, but I have not been working out or even doing much other than lay in bed with a cold compress on my face. I take liquid tylenol every 4 hours and sleep a lot. I know that I am still recovering from my nasal surgery, but I STILL feel guilty! Before the nasal operation, I was working out, dressing up, doing my hair, makeup, jewelry, nails, etc. Now, I take a shower and sit around all day without doing my hair, nails, or makeup. I wear crummy t-shirts and play computer games. I am depressed because I still hurt too much to do much. I want to sing and dance and play! We are also broke right now (naturally!). I cancelled our vacation to go camping; too much pain. I should be feeling fortunate that I have the summer time off so I can BE sick, I guess. But I DON'T!!! My hair is falling out, my nails are splitting and I feel like SH#T!!!!!! Tomorrow I see the nasal doc again. I am going to go walk the treadmill for ten minutes and weigh in at the spa. Maybe if I lost a couple of lbs. I would feel better. Pray for a little loss on the scale for me tomorrow.

Hey Lady: Your no failure...look at how far you've come...I have read your posts from time to time and you just had surgery....nasal surgery - I have heard from many people that it kicks you a**. Look how much worse you would feel right now without the weight loss...how much did you drag when you were heavier? weren't you more tired and wasn't everything almost an effort to do? Your doing GREAT and I am very proud of you! Please don't feel like a failure....you are so far from that! Not many peoplec ould go through what we did to become healthy, happy indviduals!

Thanks! You are right, of course. I was just sitting on my pity pot and letting the pain talk. I am better today.

Thanks for the HUGS! What would I do without you guys?

Hey Lou Ann I wondered if something was up with you. You 'WOW moment' posts have decreased. I so look forward to those!! The others are right. You have been put through the mill. Maybe your body is just saying 'slow down, let me catch up'. As for your daily routine, or lack thereof, maybe subconciously you don't want to mess with your hair and nails because you are seeing the negative changes (ie the loss of and the splitting)? At least you are still showering. I bet DH appreciates that! What would happen if you would incorporate those habits back into your routine every couple of days? Today I'll do my hair, Friday I'll do my nails, etc. Make appointments with yourself and then keep them. One at a time so as to not overload yourself. Maybe a hairbrained idea, but is a thought. Maybe if things don't change, you should consider speaking to your PCP about depression? Don't be too hard on yourself and keep coming here for your cyber hugs. BIG hug, thoughts and prayers Sheila

Thanks! I did my hair today, so that is progress. Thanks for the hug.

Girl you are doing great and your are an inspiration to me and so many others here. Going through a major facial surgery just after your WLS was a huge step! I know it is hard for us to remember that sometimes we have to take it easy and take care of ourselves instead of "pushing through it." We can easily pu**** too far and then we are really down for the count. Nothing we can do or say is gonna make it all better but know that we are all behind you girl! It does get better a little bit everyday. I see you having your moments of joy in between all of the pain and I am proud of you! Keep it up! Brightest Blessings for a Wonderful Day~ Jamie M. aka Lady Autumn Weight- 257/176/146 BMI- 44.1/30.2/25 Height- 5'4" Total Weight Loss: -81 lbs. Surgery Date- 1/19/05 Visit my OH profile or stop by My Weight Loss Journey Website at: home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-LadyAutumnsWLSjourney My Live Journal is at: livejournal.com/users/magickalmom/

Thanks, Jaime. I am better today. The doc said that there will be pain off and on for about two more weeks. I can take it for two more weeks. Besides, the payoff is a beautiful nose and being able to breathe!! Love, Lou Ann