I FIT!!!

OK, so I was digging through my folks' basement, out of boredom, and I found one of my old "formals" and decided that it might be a good idea to find all of them and take 'em back to Tuckessee with me and donate them to the YMCA (they run a formal attire loan program to folks who cannot afford to buy new clothing for military balls). About a half hour passed by before I found them all and then for whatever reason I decided to play dress up! I put them on in order of Senior year down to 8th grade. Of course the high school stuff was wayyyy too big for me, I was swimming in them! The stuff from my freshman year fit ok with a bit of room in some places (like my lack of boobs now)! And the stuff from middle school was tight and I could only zip them up half way, heck my adult rib cage is way bigger than my prepuberty one! Anyways, when I was done I started packing up my dresses into bags I got curious again. Now you know what curiosity did to that darn cat.... I grabbed out two other dresses that belonged to one of my sisters. The first one I tried on I knew belonged to my baby sister who began to put on weight in high school just as I did, so I figured that it might be a bit tight but that I could zip it up. I thought this because I had always saw her as a skinnier version of me. I ALWAYS saw myself fatter than her and right now even at my size I figured that I was still bigger than "old her"! To my surprise the dress not only fit but I had room in it! I was shocked and for the first time in my life I actually felt how she must have felt trying on my old dresses when it was time for her own formals and wanted to save money and just borrow mine. (We are 7 years apart in age difference.) Anyways, since she is going through her own weight issues now I decided to hide my joy and not share the fact that I could fit in her old high school prom dress. But then I found this other dress in the mist of hers and I could not recall her ever wearing this one. It was simple and elegant and I just had to try it on. It fit PERFECT and I looked fabulous! I wish I would have had this two weeks ago for hubby's military ball! So I ran upstairs and asked my mom whose dress it was, she looked at me with total shock and said, "That's Dana's!" Dana is my middle sister who is skinny as a rail and has never had a weight problem. I almost cried right there! I was shocked and crushed that I could not share my joy with my best friend (my baby sister, Katie) because I knew it would hurt her to no end. And then it hit me, if I always viewed myself as the "fattest of the girls" and "Dana as the skinniest" (the unattainable size) then perhaps Dana was not as small as we thought she was and we were not as big as we thought we were. And through a healthy diet and exercise program we can do it! Is that confusing? Of course Dana lost tons of weight after high school and now she is the skinniest little thing, she wears like a 6 or some crazy single digit number like that! Anyways, I am still not going to share my excitement with Katie b/c I love her too much, but I have to tell someone... so here it is! LOL! You know what one thing I discovered about myself... I think I have always had "fat head." I honestly had it in my mind that I was much bigger than I really was all through middle and high school. Boy was I wrong, just based on the sizes of the dresses I kept. In 8th grade I wore an 9/10. As a freshman I wore a 10-12. I really put on weight in my sophomore - senior year and jumped to a 16-18. In college is when I really started to bloom and I was in a solid 20. Of course after marriage and childbirth I grew to 20-24. At my highest I was a 24 or a 3X in most clothing. So even though I was overweight in middle and high school I was not as big as I tough I was. I guess I was smaller than a 12 before, I just don't remember that! What does all this nonsense boil down to? I am smaller today than I was as a freshman/sophomore but I have more to loose to be down to middle school sizes! LOL! Brightest Blessings for a Wonderful Day~ Jamie M. aka Lady Autumn Weight- 257/176/146 BMI- 44.1/30.2/25 Height- 5'4" Total Weight Loss: -81 lbs. Surgery Date- 1/19/05 Visit my OH profile or stop by My Weight Loss Journey Website at: home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-LadyAutumnsWLSjourney My Live Journal is at: livejournal.com/users/magickalmom/

RIGHT ON, JAMIE!!!!! Thank you for your post, and thank you for sharing!

that is sooo great jamie keep up the good work debby 200/145/110? i hope