depression

I haven't been here in a while it seems that all I do is whin and I can't even stand myself. I have always had a problem with depression and that lead to most of my wieght problem. Well for the first few weeks after surgery I was feeling okay not great but okay and good on most days. Well for about the last week I seem to have taken a big time dive in the depression pool. I have been nasty to my family, want to cry all the time, I can't make myself get out of this. Yes I am on meds. Here is the way I see it, I worked for 2 years to get this d*mn surgery and now I can eat anything and almost as much as I want, my hair is falling out and in 4 months I have had only 1 person that isn't family say anything about my weight loss. I have only lost 70 pounds and when you start out at all most 400, 70 an't crap. I haven't changed one single size in clothes. I can walk a mile now but I think that has more to do with stopping smoking which I am thinking about going back to so I won't eat or think about eating because that is all I do think about eating,want to eat want to eat. I will be 4 months tomorrow and go to see my surgen and dread the thought because he said that he thought I would fail at it before he even did the surgery. I'm sorry just having a really hard time. Thanks once again for listening to me whine.

Peggy...70 pounds is A LOT. .. You will not fail...if you fall off the wagon get back on...YOU CAn DO IT..We both had the same date and I have only lost 60 pounds but I feel great...my diabetis is GONE, my sleepa apnea is GONE. Look for the positives...do you feel better? Up your protein...I went to GNC and they sold me a protein that has 55 grams in a serving and I've been having two a day. My hair is starting to fall out and it was mighty thin to begin but it will grow back and this summer I will put this ole wrinkly body in a bathing suit for the first time in yearssssss. So cheer up...you are doing fine and it will come off no matter how slow it goes. You WILL NOT fail we will not let you...smile now and have a protein drink. I heat up a cup of skim milk in the microwave add two scoops of choc protein and have a hot choc. It goes down easy and it fills you up. Do I cheat?...yeah but I'm still way better than before the surgery. You can do it!!!!!

Whine away, girl. we are here for ya. I have suffered depressions evil effects many times before; it runs in my family. I know the symptoms so well. You can't get yourself out of it, anymore than you can operate on yourself or treat yourself. It requires the right combination of meds. and therapy. I went through 5 meds (prozac, wellbutrin, xanax, etc.) before we found the ones that worked. I don't need them anymore (5 years), but I am ready to take them again if I feel those horrible symptoms returning. If you don't see results with this doc, try another one! I went through 3!! The first one didn't listen to me(too busy), the second was a believer in "humiliation therapy", but the third got me on the right meds. and found a good therapist and group for me. I felt better in weeks. Here is some advice I know you don't want to hear; exercise. Everyone told me it would help, but I was so far from feeling like exercise that I just couldn't. Finally, I did. After a week, I noticed a natural high after the workout. Now, I am hooked! Send me a letter anytime. I understand totally. Feel better soon! Lou Ann

Peggy, 70 lbs is a tremendous weight loss. I know what you mean about thinking you should have lost more in this amount of time but you ARE doing great. Post on here anytime, we are here to listen to the highs and the lows associated with this surgery. Nobody told me this would be easy and they were correct. I had the hardest weekend since surgery this weekend. We went camping with my family and I had to watch the rest of my family eating smores and toasting marshmallows over the fire and it was just horrible. I got grouchy and irritable. We are here for you whenever you need us, don't be afraid to post your fears. I personally get tired of hearing only the good stuff everyday. Keep your chin held high you are doing great and will SUCCEED! Kim

Peggy - Just think...you can walk a mile now!!! I think that comment alone is pretty great, but you add the fact that you are less 70 pounds! Also, keep up with the stopping smoking. 4 months can seem like a long time, but it is just a beginning to your new life. Don't be sorry for having a really hard time, we all have been there and this is not an easy road by any means! I will bet that you will be the one encouraging someone else in a few months! Take care, and remember, we are here for you. Cheri