A little frustration...Need to vent
My 4 month anniversary was last week. I have had lots of complications but would do it all again. I have lost 95 lbs (including the 11 post-op). I do realize from reading the posts that this is in the normal range. My frustration lies in that in the last 6 weeks since my last complication (surgery to repair a ruptured large intestine from stricture dilation) I have only lost 5 lbs. The biggest reason that I am frustrated, besides the obvious is that I am on the verge of my first two major milestones, that go hand in hand, losing 100 lbs and getting under 200 lbs.
The good thing is that I am never hungry and don't crave anything, the bad thing is that I feel like I spend every waking moment eating and drinking. I feel that this is not good behavior for the long run. I have a hard time tolerating much. I live on protein bars and yogurt. I am still only getting down between 30 and 40 gm of protein a day. I drink from 40 to 48 oz per day. I know that this is not enough but I am trying.
My exercise is not quite there yet do to my last surgery. I am really tired all of the time, I am not sure if it is from the surgery and 2 weeks of antibiotics from being septic or because I am not getting enough protein. I am walking 3 times a day - 15 minutes at a time. This is what I can do right now and I think that it is better that nothing.
On an up note...I attended a wedding last night, my first real public appearance and several people commented on how good I look.
I know that I sound like a whiner and have pretty much answered all of my own questions. I just needed to vent to people who can actually understand where I am and am looking for pointers from people in a similar situation.
Thanks for listening/reading! I check this board every day and it is very inspirational!
Thanks again,
Becki
297/202/135 - 5'8"
i really have no advice for your situation but i support you in your journey, i had some complications in the begining and it was hard while in the moment of those struggles...i was thinking.."what have i done" but with support i quickly realized, this was part of my journey...i could just sit there and pout about my complications or make it part of my journey that i overcome and thats what i did...i look back at the low moments and see the strength building within me....i did not see it at the time but looking back it was my foundation for who i am now ..i am strong and confident in my WLS journey...i am exercising, eating right and doing the
things i need to do within the parameters set by my docter and following the food plan that is part of my program. It was crushing to me when i was not losing during my complications so i know how you feel but the weight loss caught up after i was through that phase so relax about that it will come off just not on your time schedule, do the best you can in whatever the cir****tances are...keep focus on your goals and be the best you can be.... 15 minutes walks are great soon they will be 20 and then 25, look passed your situation you know it will get better, know this and thrive within your parameters...all you can do is the best you can, don't exspect to be able to do more..you have done great!!! be happy with the 95 lost that is great and what an accomplishment...wow!!
the 100 will come....just relax..you are on target and just relax and let your body heal.
Hi Becki,
We share the same surgery date. I too had complications with emergency bowel obstruction surgery this week. I've only lost 62lbs and weigh 194lbs, I am grateful. I think you are still healing. It's such a shock to your body to have to go through these proceedures again as you and I have. Keep trying to get in more protein, fluids and exercise, everything will be fine. I am back on the full liquid stage and trying to increase the fluids but they still hurt my tummy because they had to biopsy a lesion. I'm sure you look great. When did your drs tell you to start walking again after the last surgery?
Take care,
Syndi
Hi Becky
Hang in there it will get better. I too have had some compliations but minor by comparrion. I have developed an ulcer and find eating a real core. YOu have lost an amazing amout of weight so I think you body is just giving itself some time to recover. I am about a week after you and I have only lost 69 lbs so far and I was much much heavier. I was hoping to have hit 90 or so by now, but it is just not happening. I am now under 300 lbs so I am happy about that. But it does seem that the body controls the rate for many reasons.
Kiva
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