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it occured to me tonight...we will allways have our emotional luggage that is within our own personal perception of ourselves that we need to start overcoming, all the pain we have suffered at hands of others and our own harshness we have allowed to fester and live within us....been a long time since we could look in the mirror and say.........wow i am looking good today...just as we retrain our brains to stay within our program and be satisfied with food, we need to tell ourselves,,,i am working hard at getting to goal...i am working hard at staying within my guidelines to maximise the weight loss effets of the surgery, i am feeling so much better...i am exercising to make my self look better and be healthy ....i am going out more and walking with a little confidence and a shimmy........smile, we need to keep all these positives and allow ourselves to be proud and allow other people to accept us as we are..that i think is the hardest part..we are not use to doing it so along with everything else we have retrained and worked on...our personal perception has to be worked on and we need to be proud of ourselves and then we can allow the negative emotions in grained in us from living morbidly obese and suffering alone, to be part of our memory. This is not the way it is now...i am a new me....proud, stong and confident....i have a new attitude and a new butt to go along with it. just a little rambling thought i had tonight....i see myself alot of differnt ways...sometimes wow...i have done so well and other times i am still 400 lbs....i thought i would share my spin on down 87 pounds and working on acting like it...........thanks for listening.....anyone else struggle with these same demons. i could have used I instead of we but i know others have to be crossing these same bridges

Hi Tom Very well put!! Thank you for sharing Take care, Syndi

These same things live in my head. I think to a certain extent they always will. No matter what the physical appearance, I think that somewhere in the recesses of my mind that person who was morbidly obese will stay. I think the mental change takes a lot longer to catch up to the physical person.

Tom, Three thoughts: 1. You are looking very sexy. If I were single....hmmm 2. You have an especially big heart and always make us "girls" feel special. 3. You are obviously an intelligent and sensitive man. So, I say.....If you are not married then you are quite a catch, and if you are married then your wife is one lucky lady. Of course, if you are gay, I have a friend you should meet.

(((((((((((((TOM))))))))))))))) awwwwww you are so sweet, and YES I struggle with the same demons Have a good night ~*~Beth~*~

Oh Tom, thanks so much for sharing! Your musings really hit home. I have been trying to not become narsasistic but dang I LOOK GOOD! I admit, sometimes I have my days where I feel just as fat as I used to be. Thankfully, most days I take my daily look in the mirror and say... you go girl! I am really trying hard to find a new frame of mind and better habits, both of which I intent to carry out into my next life. I say my new life, because it feels like I have been reborn! Brightest Blessings for a Wonderful Day~ Jamie M. aka Lady Autumn Weight- 257/186/146 BMI- 44.1/31.9/25 Height- 5'4" Total Weight Loss: -71 lbs. Surgery Date- 1/19/05 Visit my OH profile or stop by My Weight Loss Journey Website at: home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-LadyAutumnsWLSjourney

Tom, Very well put....you express so many of the issues I'm going through as well. Mary Ellen

Yepper...been there, done that and occasionally still doing it. During my research I've read that it takes on a average at least a year to a year and a half for our minds to catch up with what the body has achieved. This is why I look at my pictures to compare when I start feeling like I'm still the super morbidly obese person I use to be. Thanks for sharing Tom and just know that you're not alone in this type of thinking Deanna

Tom, Very well put!!!! We all feel this way and sometimes it is hard. Thanks for sharing!!! Becky P.

Tom when i look in the mirror I still see the super morbidly obese person. I know the scale says 62 pound gone but the head doesn't see it. I work very hard on my additude all the time and I know that with time I will see it but I also think to a point that person will always be there. I was told something one time by a head Dr and I have gained a lot of good things in my life because of it. YOU CANNOT REACH FOR THE FUTURE IF YOU ARE HOLDING TIGHT TO THE PAST. I know that I am already a better person for wls and that there are even better days to come. I just need to be nice to that MO person that still live in me somedays.