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Okay daughter tells me that I am crazy but it is still very really to me. I have lost -50 pound and still don't see it on me, in my clothes, no where nothing. I do feel better that is the only thing. I just have this fear and I mean FEAR that this isn't going to work that I am going to loss a few pounds and the secound that I stop watching every single thing that I put into my mouth that it will all reappear right back on my fat butt. I feel that I can eat way to much at one time and nothing I mean nothing makes me dump. Yes I have tested the limits even though I was told that I shouldn't. Candy, choc, bread nothing. I can eat a good cup if not more at a time. I am hungery all the time and want to eat and eat till I am sick. I feel that either my pouch is to big or that my stoma is letting my food move through to fast. I can eat and eat till I get that sick stuffed feeling and then if I wait about 1/2 and hour I can eat again. This is what I am doing but it is like being on another diet that I know will fail, I only eat protien and vegetable, no starch,no carbs, no sweats, I try to stay below 1000 cals a day, yes I am getting in enough fluids well over 64oz, over 50g of protien, I walk at least a mile everyday and do R. Simmons 4 times a week. As I write this I can feel the fear just growing I will just die if this doesn't work. So many people have helped me get this surgery and feel that I will be letting them down if I fail. My surgen is of no help we don't have a good relationship. There is no support group in my area either so I really am on my own. Well except for this web site. Thanks for listening again...................................Peggy

Peggy, I don't really know what to say to help you, just know that 50 lbs in 8 weeks is wonderful. I am 9 weeks and have lost 43. I too do not see the weight loss on myself but people comment to me about it all the time. It sounds to me that you are doing everything okay. I too can eat more now that I could earlier out. Some days I can eat around 1 cup of food at a time and other days I can't get in 1/4 of a cup at a meal. I think it depends on the texture of the food you are eating. Remember that with all the exercise you are doing you are toning your muscles and that may be why you aren't seeing a big change in your clothes yet. In my case my thighs and waist are smaller but in my abdomen area my pants aren't much to big. And of course the one area I wanted to go down first was my abdomen. I think you are doing wonderful just give it a little time. Kim 286/243/150ish

Did you take preop photos, Peggy? That's where I can see it -- I, too, don't see it in the mirror. I know exactly how you are feeling, though, My Friend! I have to remind myself all of the time that this is not just another diet to conquer, fail and then regain. It is our most special tool, and I am thankful for it every single waking minute! I'm trying to focus on the road and enjoy the ride I'm on now... I soooo can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's not another train -- YEAH!!!! (((skinny hugs))) wendyb 302/255.5/healthy&happy with myself

Okay I don't mean to sound tacky, but you need to chill, I am further out than you and have lost 27lbs just as of this coming Monday. Thats it! I went through a period that I didn't lose for almost 2 MONTHS, do the math, I just lost this 3lbs last week and this week NADA! You want to talk about scared put yourself in my shoes and we'll talk scared. I am excersizing, eating right, drinking my protien drinks, the only thing I'm not doing is getting a full 65oz of fluild in a day. And I'm still not losing. Not lbs not inches. At this rate I won't even be under 200 by my 6mo po date. This surgery isn't working for me period and I have done what I am suppose to and even if I didn't I know several people who do less and break all the rules and still lose! You should be happy with yourself and your loss you could be me............. Marti

Marti I am so sorry I do tend to whine and forget that others have problems too. I guess we will have to just keep our chins up and hope for the best.................................Peggy

Its okay, I know I sounded harsh I didn't mean to be that way its just that I'm looking at your 50lbs thinking why can't that be me I'd give anything to have lost that much in that time. Your lucky. I don't think I'm getting anywhere close to goal at this point, or much further for that matter and I'm really scared. I don't know what to think or do. Neither does any other WLS paitents I've talked to. So that makes me the only one. Again I'm sorry I just wanna lose...... Marti

Marti: I can understand how upset you must be. I can't emagine what I would do if I was in your shoes. I'm going crazy at 50bls let alone less. Have you been able to talk to your surgen and if so what does he say. I know that some loss slower than others but going weeks at a time in the beginning without lossing just seems strange. I think I would be asking for answers or test or something. If you need to talk just drop me a line promise I will listen even if I don't have any answers............................Peggy

Did you read the post my Wedy B titled WDYET...IF NOT PLEASE read it helps explain why some lose faster than others. You will both be surprised a year from now...hang in there....