One week post-op

Well, I'm finally on the loosing side. I geniunely had regrets the first few days post-op. I was in pain, but worse was the dizziness, nausea, and vomiting. Everytime I moved I felt as though I was going to vomit, and I don't think the room stopped spinning for at least two days. I'm a week out now, and I know I made the right choice for myself. I suppose it is posibile for one to actually loose two hundred excess pounds within a litetime. But try as I may, that person is not me. I know in my heart that I never would've lost the weight naturally. And I feel pretty sh*ty about saying that. But it's true. I took the guarentee of weight loss over the struggle within to loose it. Does that make me a bad person? Yeah, I suppose to some it does. Right now to me it does. Hopefully as I get further out, I will have fewer ethical questions about what I've done. Anyone else every feel this way afterwards?

I am 6 days out myself. I've dealt with dizziness, dry heaving (thanks to the morphine!), fevers, a trip back to the E.R. today to rule out blood clot and leak, amoung many other little complications. So far all is okay but I've been on the I.V. for 3 days and was pretty dehydrated after not drinking. So that is changing. I have had pain and fear during this last week. But I feel so grateful and peaceful at the same time. The way I feel during the bad times in no way compares to the good I feel during the incresingly great times. It is easy to look back as say "what if"...what if I would have lost the weight another way? What if I made the wrong decision? In all reality, does it matter? There is no easy way to lose weight. This is such a gift that we have this option available to us today. For those of us 100 + pounds overweight, chances are we wouldn't lose the weight any other way. Trust me, there are struggles with this way too. There is no free ride whatsoever. We just chose the way that statstically gives us the best chance of all for a healthier life! I think things get better over time. It is such a change and shock for our bodies and our mental state that it is totally normal to wonder if we made the right decision. I like the advice I have heard from long-term post-ops who say there will be times when we all think that, but the answer is yes we have made the right decision.

Thank you so much. I guess I really needed to hear that.

Hi Kelly, I am one day ahead of you 1/6/05 surgery. I have had the same problems that you are having. Well emotionally not physically. I have had a breeze with the physical portion of surgery, the physche part is another story. I am mourning the loss of food and i am "head" starving. I am also depressed right now. I know that this is the right decision becaus as you said their is no way I would lose 160 lbs on my own. I will use this as a tool and hope that it works. I feel bad because I never had the willpower to do this myself. You know what I still don't have the wilpower but I have a tool to MAKE me have wil power. If I don't then I pay.. This is NOT the easy way out no matter what people say, we suffer in different ways, emotional ways and physical ways Just always remmember why you did it and what the end result will be-Health. B

Hi Kelly, Here's a reminder from a Pre-Op as to why you do this =). Feeling healthy, living longer, doing things you can't or won't do overweight. Trying on clothes in a "regular" store. Not being as tired, as depressed. You did this for you, it is an easy choice, of course not..but guess what, in the end, it was the right one! When you walk into say Macy's and try on the size 12, you'll think..why was I depressed about this =) Just remember, I'm sure you were depressed being overweight before you had surgery, it's only natural to feel down about the loss of all of our good friend Food. LOL..maybe i should read this post a week from today, when i too am post-op. Just remember there are 100s of us here on this site, just like you =) Continued success on your WLS! Amie