nervous, excited, scared all at once!!

Hello everyone. I have a surgery date of Jan 10th. I didn't think I would be as jittery as I am, and I still have a week to go! I think the one real thing I am worried about is dying and leaving my children without a mother. The pain, recovery and learning to eat again I can handle. My family and friends help, but it's so nice to hear from you all that are actually going through this with me. Any one out there feeling all these emotions too?? I need to know. Good luck to all of you having surgery this month. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, as I hope you will keep me in yours. I'd love to hear from any of you. I need all the support I can get!!

Sharon, My surgery date is on the 19th. I too am a nervous wreck. those exact thoughts go through my head. I have a 14 yr old and an almost two year old. Eveyone tells me that this is in Gods hands not mine. I don't think I have been so scared in my life. I don't want to leave my babies either. Angela

I do not have any children, but I do think about dying and leaving my family members that I am very close to that would miss me very much. I am very excited, very scared and nervous at the same time. This surgery seems to me to be a gift that I have been given to use a tool to create a new phase in my life. I have a deep faith in God and I do know that if I were to die that it would not mean the end of my existence and my family would adjust. But I can imagine how you mothers must agonize about leaving your children. We'll all hang in here together, support each other in our concerns and make it through this!!! Blessings and prayers to all of you! Carolyn

Boy can I relate, I am scheduled for the 24th... all I can think about is something happening to me and my 5 children losing their mother, just so I can be healthy and skinny, what am I doing. I think maybe I am being selfish!! I am excited and will follow through but at what cost, I am freaking too!! I know that if all goes well that I will be given a longer life to spend with my children, and that is the awesome part, but the stakes are high!! I just want to be healthy and live longer for my children, my husband, and myself, but I am scaaaarrredd. I also need all the support I can get as my time draws nearer.

Hello Sharon I know that you must be nervous and scared . It is in God's hands and He will be your protector. I have my surgery the day after you and I'm trying to just think positive about the surgery and about the changes I will need to make forever in my life to stay as healthy as possible. Focus on the the good outcome of the surgery and put a smile in your heart and on your face. God's blessings. Carolyn Faye

Hello i'm Sonia and my surgery is 1/10/05 at 6 a.m. I'm a little nerves too. Even when I did my MRI I hated it because your in a small space and I feel like I can't breath.But I said THE LORD PRAYER over and over till the test was done. You will see your surgery will be over before you know it. I will be praying for all of us before our surgery. Good luck and put your trust in Gods hands. Never think negative thought just be positive. We are strong women and we can do this. God bless you all