Have a Great time! I am going to Aruba in june i will be at 6 month mark after post op ande i cant wait for real vacation in 3 yrs.

Hi Kristal! I know exactly how you feel! I'm near your age (23) and I was 405 the day before my surgery so I'm also near your starting weight. I've lost 76lbs so far and a lot of the time I really can't see it. I notice that I have more energy but I still like fat old Monika a lot of the time. I also feel like I've lost sooo much weight already (114 lbs total) but it just doesn't seem like it makes a difference because I still have so far to go. More power to all of the people who started out at a lower bmi and are already halfway or more to goal, but I can't help but be a little jealous. I worry all the time that I won't be able to make it to my goal. I'm still mad at myself a lot of the time for ever letting it get so out of hand, but I guess that's life. I'm sure we'll get there in time, and in my support group everyone says it usually takes at least a couple of years for your brain to catch up with what you really look like. It's very common to look in the mirror and still see yourself how you used to be and not what's really there. My fiance and I are buying a house next month and getting married this summer, so we've been dealing with a lot of stressful issues too. Just try not to turn on eachother, we've started counseling and I think it has really helped a lot. We did something that will affect the rest of our lives so I'm sure it's completely normal to feel a little blue about it from time to time. Anyways, I hope you start to feel better soon! If you need anyone to talk to I'd be more than happy to chat with ya! Take care! -Monika

Hey Everyone, I have neglected the board in some time. Sorry! I am having some interpersonal issues and just really need some support. Seems lately that I have had more "I feel Fat" days than not. I think I am still on the right track. My weight loss has been slow this month. Only about 12 pounds for the whole month. I have a total loss of 88 pounds...I just don't see it when I look in the mirror. I think it will be many more pounds gone before I do see it... I feel so blue and down lately. I need a happy pill I think? IF anyone else out ther is having issues like this, please let me know. I would think that with all this weight loss, I would be a little happier? I am under a lot of financial stress right now. My husband and I are dealing with some difficult issues and I still have this back issue, which by the way, I need to get off of here and go to therapy! I look forward to hearing from you guys. Much blessings for all *****ad this! Kristal V.

T Lily, thank you so much. I think youjust hit the nail on the head. I so need to come up with another stress cope method. I've been going to the gym, pllaying with the kids etc. but it dosent come naturally yet. weird huh? o.k. see ya thanks again. michelle

Hi Kim, I was thinking the same negative things this morning so I wrote down my weight that I keep track in a journal. In 105 days I've lost 64 lbs. I lost the most the first month, a little less the second. This month I lost 6 lbs in 9 days and then 5 lbs the last 9 days. It sure varies. I gained 2lbs one day as I had Lipton's soup the night before. I can go 7-10 days and not drop and then will drop 4-5 lbs overnight. It doesn't make sense to me. I wish I could just quit weighing and not worry about it but I keep getting drawn to the SCALEGOD! I'm down from size 24 Cherekee Jeans to size 18. I seem to be losing more on the bottom than top. But the great thing is I'm losing. I just started to go to water arobics and have not had the energy to excercise until now so I'm hoping this will help. Wishing you the best! T