Confession

I have a confession to make. I have been having mixed feelings. I am so so happy for all of you that have hit the 100 + lbs off. But am still not there. I have only lost 96. And now i am on a plateau. I try to be up beat, and alot of wonderful things have happened to me. But, I get so discouraged and sad. I look at how great you all are doing and i am finding it hard to check in weekly. Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I a selfish person? I when I first stared this I was 308 and now i am 202, but on surgery day I weighed 298. So i humor my self by saying that my start weight was 308. Just so I feel better. Funny, huh? To top it off I have battled Bulemia for years. And this week has been a week for hell. I want to benge soooooo bad. But I can't. I fear starting to eat and not stopping. So I am now skipping meals, and staying away for foods. I have been drinking alot of coffee. I know this is bad. But like i said, week form hell. Well thanks for listening. You gals are great. and i do enjoy reading you posts. It is the comparing my self to you all that is hard. Christina (sorry for the pity party)

Christina, I am right there with you. I began at 240 on 1/30/04 and I am only down to 162. I am happy I have lost ANY weight, but just like you, I get discouraged when I see people with 100 lbs gone. I also dealt with the bulemia and anorexia (sp) for 5 years. You are not alone. What are you doing as far as exercise? I'm not doing any right now. I was faithful and worked out 7 days a week for 4 months and then my energy and desire just dropped. I know that is part of my problem. Feel free to e-mail me if you need someone to listen. I will be there for ya! Hope this helps. Tracy Lap RNY 1/30/04 Dr. Potts 240/162/?

You are not alone at all, in fact that is why I have been hiding because I too am just so fustrated right now but if we read there are alot of fustrations going on!!!!! I thought I was about 2 lbs away from my 100 lb loss and I went and bought a digtal scale and it say I am 178 so its aggrivating because I have been in the high 70's all mnth and for about 2-3 mnths now I have lost maybe 5 lbs a mnth if I am lucky. I stopped excersing and started that back up the other day again and I need more water but I am scared this is it and I think it may be. I truely wanted to be 130 but I would be satisfied with 150 that would be in the normal range but I am CRAWLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know it may pick up again but I am wonderring when as well so you are so not alone and I am glad you posted because it helps me to know I am nto alone and I will keep you in my prayers as well. Just try to think like I do that we have lost more than we ever would have on our own and I was asked the other day how much I weighed and I told her 178 and she was stunned, she said I looked like maybe 140 so people carry it differnt too, I guess

Christina, I completely understand where you are coming from. Heck, 5 days before my surgery I weighed 331 but on the day of the surgery I weighed 325 (perhaps a difference in scales but I doubt it). I still guage my weightloss on the 331 weight. I haven't yet hit the 100 lb mark. I know every one is different and we all start off at different places, but I can't help but feel frustrated/failure when I hear of other massive weightlosses and I haven't yet hit 100 lbs. I know I could do a heck of a lot better if I would just exercise more, but when I work 14 hours a day 6 days a week, it's so difficult to get motivated to exercise. ::;sigh::: So ..... it other words, some of us are right there with ya. (and there's a reason my email name is coffenut .... I can't give up coffee either) Lida

Christina and others.. I too, feel jealous of my brothers and sisters that do so much better than me at the weight loss. Especially since I work so hard at it. I haven't lost A SINGLE POUND in two months. I have only lost about 85 pounds and my doctor (endocrinologist) says I may be done. That was so discouraging when he said it - but it was my motivation to get MOVING! So I did. I began exercising again, I paid great attention to my food intake and getting my protein in, drinking a lot of fluids that are on my list (one can only take so much water in a day) and do not eat ANYTHING with sugar more than 9 grams. (I still get sick) All this - and not 1 pound lost in the month I did this. What's a girl to do? At times I get frustrated - but I try to think of all the positive things. For instance - it is entirely possible that maybe the surgeon didn't take so much intestine out because I was so young and needed the nutrients? When have I ever lost that much weight before? When have people noticed me like they do? The answer to those questions is NEVER! So when I get down on the scale answer - then I try to think of all the positive things. But sometimes it still gets to me. Thanks for this post. It is a great post for those who are somewhat disappointed with our slow losses. We can stick together and support one another! Together - we will do it! God Bless, Barbie 281/196/170ish

Now Christina, I have only lost 79 lbs. and I am fighting for every pound, so see you have flown past me! Remember caffine has it's ups and it's downs, and if your feeling sad, try decaf! Look how pretty you are, and you look healthy too! The head stuff is harder to get over all of us can tell ya that, so start eating and drink some decaf if ya have to drink coffee. Cheer Up your doing great, besides the best times wouldn't seem so great if we didn't experience low times. So you can compare yourself to me, you have lost over 17 more pounds than me. Come on now, just think this week is almost over, time to begin a better one! Catherine 275/197/150ish 1/22/04

How bad and why is coffee so bad for us? I am stuck on 185lbs for two months now I have lost a total of 90 lbs since surgery 1-20-04. I am a coffee addict I drink espresso latte's about 3 or 4 cups a day.. I cant live without my espresso machine I havent been able to drink alot of water and I have been forgetting to drink my protein shakes Alberto

im also stuck. i was very excited to be down 97 lbs..... 3 lbs to 100 right? well, then the next week i weighed and i was at 95 lbs down.... 5 lbs to 100 then the next week down 96 lbs.... 4 pds. to 100. its driving me crazy. im hoping to be closer to the century mark next week. bye, michelle.