Does any one else get this feeling?

I have lost 65 lbs gone from 220 to 155...Which is great and I am proud of it, but the problem is that at certain times when I look at myself i still see and feel like that 220lb woman. It bothers me. i have gone from a size 22 to a 12 and i guess i should be happy, but at times i still see the old me. And one last thing. I was looking at old pictures of me and never did I realize or feel i was that big, but to look at those pictures. It's the same with my mother and sister who also had the procedure. To look back at yourself knowing at that time you were self conscious, but accepting of your weight. Then you lose it and can't belive you were ever that big. like there was something wrong with me being big. I look at the old me and it makes me ill and i pray I never go back to that ever again. It's almost as if I am a hypocrite. i don't know if anyone feels the same or not. i hope I am not alone.

Stacy- I feel the same way...some days I look in the mirror and feel great...and then other days...still see myself at 222. It's very hard sometimes to deal with it...sometimes people are looking at me, and I think that I have something hanging out of my nose or something! I am not used to not being the "invisible fat chick" anymore. I also didn't say how big I was pre-op. So you are by far...not alone! Lori 222/167/1?? laprny 1-6-04

Stacy- I have the same feelings! Its amazing isn't it? We share the same surgery date! In November 2003 I weighed in at 248 lbs and the day before surgery I was down to 236 and am now down to 164 (tomorrow's my weigh in day). A total of 84 pounds! I still can't believe it! I am wearing sizes from 10 -14, just depends on the make, style, and brand, etc. More often than not I feel like I still weigh 248 lbs. Every once in a while I put on my old jeans (which are a size 22), as a matter-of-fact I just did this on Sunday, it's simply amazing. I just can't believe I was that obese! They say it takes several months for our minds to catch up with our physical state. The only advice I can give you is keep looking at those old pictures and keep at least one pair of pants and try them on periodically. Keep up the good work! Kimberley 248/236/164/135 by August - I hope!

SORRY!! I meant...I didn't "SEE" how big I was pre-op!!! Lori

I see it too. Your not alone. I guess it will take a while for our minds to catch up with our weight loss. Congrat's on losing that much. My starting weight was 238 and know I'm down too 177 lbs and still see the fat person in the mirror even when I'm wearing a size 12/14, I used to wear a very tight 26 didnt want to buy a bigger size. The behavior pysch spoke to us at my last post op meeting and said this is normal. I feel the same way, I never ever want to be big and unhealthy again. I do have fears that I would gain weight again, but I try not to think about it. I focus on my goal weight of 120 that is the only thing on my mind right know. And once I reach goal weight I will be normal weight for once in the past 12 years. Hang in there. Linda

Hi Everyone, I was just saying the same thing this weekend. I am 5 months post-op as of June 19th and I am down 97 pounds. I am so happy and feel great and everyone around me comments on how great I look, although I still have plenty more to go. Anyway I feel the same way sometimes I look in the mirror and can't see much of a difference. I am sure it will come in time. Congrats to us all wqe are all doing great!!