Finally!!!!

I think i made it past the "OMG what did I do to myself" stage and into the "Thank goodness I had this surgery" stage. I was beginning to think I might never get here!

I know what you mean. I had surgery 1/20/04 and I felt the same way. It is amazing how each day I feel a little bit better. God is good!

I'm a little slower; first stage 'OMG what did I do to myself?' 2nd stage 'So what, go out and live your life!' 3rd stage 'I can do this, it's not that bad, just different.' But people tell me its not 'normal' to eat like I do now. Well you know what? It wasn't 'normal' the way I ate before the surgery! Hiding food, eating in secret, wiping out the deserts at work, eating in my car, buying 2 boxes of cookies, one for my famiy one for me, eating food off of other peoples plates before it went in the garbage(I loved to clean the kitchen alone, I could get more food). I was used to this way of life, it was a major focus of my day and took a lot of thought to plan it, look for opportunities, and chastise myself after I felt sick from overeating. Maybe I am at the 'Thank God I had this surgery' phase, it does get better everyday.