I keep getting the scariest thoughts..how normal am I?

I know its normal to be frightened by the prospect of surgery, but my thoughts seem almost morbid. When I got my surgery date, I was very excited. But when I wrote it on the calendar I thought "what if I'm marking off the day I am going to die??" I keep imagine my children's reactions if I don't make it and things like this. Is this all pretty common? I tell myself it is, then I think "What if this isn't just fear, but a premonition of whats to come?" Rationally, I know the risks are there but small, but I'm really making myself crazy. Anyone will to share their pre-op torture stories?? Thanks for listening everyone. I can't express these feelings to anyone else. Just putting this all in words has me close to tears.

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