Paula...What you're feeling is completely normal! My surgery was December 10, 2001 and I went through the same thing...just remember, you're doing this for YOU, and YOUR HEALTH...although I was/am a "fit" fat person, I knew eventually I would pay the price of being MO. I decided to have WLS as a "preventative" measure...and YES, I'd do it again...even though I have no idea how much weight I've lost! LOL Good luck and blessings to you...