Fell right off the deep end!!!!

9 1/2 days on liquid diet, humming along perfectly, a little worried about transitioning back to solids, wanted to give it a few more days but instead my munchie day**** FRIDAYS AND SATURDAYS OH HECK THE ENTIRE WEEKEND is my issue. Fell off the wagon and tipped it over with my huge butt :(
Here's a list of what I ate, and its NOT PRETTY!!!!

- a candy bar supreme ( long donut, dipped in chocolate and sprinkled with crushed M&M's)
- a few bites of a piece of store bought vanilla cake in buttercream icing
- a few licks of an ice cream cone BUT this in turn made me sick to my stomach ( I brought it up and then of course was able to in turn put away even more food)
- a bbq hot dog without the bun
- 4 of my sons packages of Spiderman fruit snacks
- a handful of skittles
- 1/2 a grilled chicken lean cuisine panini
- 1 bite of a quaker oats little ball thingy cinnamon flavoured
- the spoon PLUS a piece of Fruit Loops Marshmallow Square ( Like Rice Krispie Squares but you use Fruit Loops instead)
- handful of almonds
........ oh wow this list is long!! And to think I didn't have anything except two protein shakes before all of this and I didn't eat until after 630pm EASTERN TIME and its only 133AM NOW!!!
You can't tell me this is normal........

Can anybody else eat like this 1 year out?? And has anyone kicked this habit???

Hello Canshi,

91/2 days on liquid is fantastic, but we must remember that they operated on our stomachs and not our heads.  What was the trigger?  Was it the situation, the surroundings, the smell of the donut or the beauty of it?

Sometimes the little voice in the back of our heads says "He Me" and although we shouldn't we give in to temptation.  I am three years post op and it is difficult; I recently switched from night work to days, but I'm doing my best to keep my eating under control.

After about 6 or 7 months I was horrified when I found out that I could eat almost anything. I thought having the surgery would alleviate my bouts of hunger and I'd never be able to eat another piece of cake or candy.  Unless we get a grip and try to get control it, our grazing and junk food binge will only get worst...it did for me anyway.

Yes we had WLS, but we also have to make a lifelong healthly eating change with the surgery.  You only stumbled it's not to late to get it together.

Dreamgirl119

Hi Dreamgirl,

You are AWESOME!!  Your posts are so inspirational and insightful.  I am so grateful you're a BOTTer with me and our other BOTT friends.

Hugs, Cathy

Thank you so much Dreamgirl!! I did stumble bigtime!! And I too am very horrified that I can eat basically whatever I want to, I was very, very shocked, very few, few things make me dump or get uncomfortable and surprisingly its the better things for you like lately pork has been giving me that not so comfortable feeling in my chest that makes you sit and wait for it to go away...

It is so true that they operated on our stomaches and not our brains and thats the hard part because with being able to eat what I want and then being able to justify ANYTHING.... I did those 9 1/2 days I had girls at work ( my sabatours) telling me that I was depriving myself of those goodies and I should have just a bite or two because when I came off I waould binge worse then I ever have before..... I saw their point.... on the other hand it seemed more of a jusification to eat it

So what I did was wrong, today I have restarted the liquids just to try and purge the sugar and carbs that I consumed and then start back the proper way.... soft proteins and tehn work my way up....

Thank you for your encouraging words, I'm going to add you to my friends list so we can keep in touch :)

Please don't be so mean to yourself;  you ate some wrong foods for your body.  You aren't a bad person.

I'd like to echo the other post re: too long on liquids.  You might want to just drop back to pureed instead, which will give you actual food in your system, and then eat small protein-first meals.  Also, make sure you're getting your water in;  often our systems tell us we're thirsty but we misread the signal and think it means "hunger".

Just give it 2-4 days of purees, and then get into your scheduled meals and water intake.  Please don't let the office folks determine your intake.  You have to do what is right for you.  It is YOUR health, not theirs, which is at stake. Make a menu or meal plans so you can take what you need to work with you, and don't wind up haunting the machines in the breakroom.

I'm having a tough time getting away from those darned refined carbs myself, but only fell off the wagon one day this weekend, after having been ontrack during the entire week.  It does get easier, I promise.  I found myself cruising the cracker/cookie aisle at the Dollar Store when I went to get a movie from the Blockbuster kiosk--so now I just take my debit card and only get the movie.  I don't cruise the aisles!  I gotta do what I gotta do for me!!

Good luck!

 

Hi Canshi,

As I read your list, a couple of things came to mind.  9-1/2 days of liquid only is a long time.  Eating satisfies a physical need for our bodies but also is a whole body experience.  The chewing sensation, the feeling of the food sitting in our pouch, the experience of tasting the healthy food, etc.....it is all of that.  With a liquid diet that long, being post-op, I have to say that I probably would have bounced back with similar sugary foods as you did. 

Think of taking a deep breath and holding it, holding it, holding it, and then when you let it out it comes out all at once when you blow it out forcefully.  That is what you did with your 9-1/2 days on a liquid diet.  It sounds to me that you were somewhat restricting yourself and after 9-1/2 days, you forcefully ended the restriction.  Just a thought......

At almost 9 years out, I can eat pretty much like anyone else.  I still dump but I'm far enough post-op that I know how to work around that!  The habit of emotional eating is an engrained one.  At one point in our life we learned that by eating our emotions away, we experienced something we liked.  As with any compulsion or addiction, when we do that long enough (eating over emotions), it doesn't work any longer and then becomes a problem.  For me, I strongly believe that the way to lose and maintain our weight is to learn coping strategies for uncomfortable emotions and situation that do not involve food.  Not that I'm perfect but I am much, much more able to turn to my strategies to combat emotional eating. 

The next time you want to emotionally eat, give yourself a moment of pause to check in with yourself to see what is going on and what you are feeling.

BOTT POWER!!
Cathy

I am almost 2 years out and I noticed that - even though I tried I can't do just liquids anymore.  My body has been deprived for so long now - post op RNY - that it takes over when i try to do things like that.  It is a "survivor mode".  You went on a binge.  That happened.  But - you put your body though so much - that it rebel on you.  
So - when i know i need the 'cleanse" and decarb - this is what I do:
I have liquids during the day - shakes, teas, etc.  But then I have dinner - usually meat or fish and veggies - either cooked or salad. 
Doing that my body feels that - it has control - since I eat, and then I can really clean my system.  When I know that I can make a nice meal and have it at dinner - it allows me to maintain the "liquid" during the day since I know my rewards are a meal at the end of the day.
Then - if i feel I need to do that much longer - I simply do same things - but I make a choice what meal will I have - lunch or dinner.  It works great for me.