Frustrated

So I decided to get out today and see some friends I haven't seen in a few weeks, since I had my haircut.  I haven't really gotten a lot of feedback about my haircut.  My boyfriend didn't even notice it.  Really.  I cut off over a foot of hair and he didn't see anything different.  I am really evaluating that relationship but that's another topic.
So I got a lot of positive feedback on the haircut but I also got a lot of people commenting on my weight.  I mean would they ever dream of going up to someone that had gained weight and ask them why they are so fat?  But when you lose weight it is open season I guess.
They all want to know about my health.  The person the upset me the most kind of grabbed me and said "What's wrong with you?".  She wouldn't leave me alone, she kept insisting I tell her about my health.  I insisted that I was working with a doctor and I was doing good but she was very persistent.
I am so sick of being skinny.  I feel like such a freak.  I wanted to look normal, not to stand out any more and I feel like I stand out like a sore thumb.  I really am getting to where I don't want to leave my house.  I am so glad I am taking classes online.  You would think people never saw a thin person before.  Maybe I should join a circus.  I feel like my friends are expecting me to die any minute.
I am almost to the point of asking for a feeding tube.  Maybe I can get 3000 calories forced into me a day or something.  I keep trying to eat more but I can only eat so much.  I am starting to get scared that I will never be a normal size again.
Ok, rant over.  I'll get over feeling sorry for myself.

If anyone thinks I am exaggerating, here is a picture of my chest.

It will all be ok, really. I went through the exact same thing, a coworker even called me anorexic! Seriously?? It got to the point every time I went in to drop off/pick up my cleaning the lady kept asking me what was wrong, I finally just said, I am sick -- I never would have thought that that would be me. I also went out and bought a... wait for it.... a butt. Yes, a butt. Actually two of them and they both were not enough so I wore them at the same time. I also would wear leggings under my jeans and several shirts all to not look too skinny.

So, sweetie, I have been there. You are not alone. I wouldn't recommend my way of gaining weight, new meds and carbs. Now I am back to needing to drop 15 lbs. In reading other posts, I really recommend following what Price has laid out. I think she is doing it right. Another alternative is glucerna. It really didn't help too much for me, but I wasn't good about drinking it. It is higher calories and low sugar. But, I think you could get the same result with a beefed up protein shake. Think whole fat, peanut butter and maybe a banana.

Keep the faith. 
We are all here for you.
Jen

Thank you.  I do have faith that this is just a temporary phase I am going through and soon I will be like other post ops, worrying about too much bounce back.
I am paranoid about sugar because I do dump, even natural sugars and healthy fats have caused it.  And I avoid refined carbs and gluten but beyond those limitations I do eat very well.  I eat about 7 or 8 times a day including my protein.  I get sick of it sometimes but I just go by the clock.  If I waited until I was hungry I might never eat.  The other day I got busy and realized I hadn't had anything to eat in 4 or 5 hours.  
I have stayed this weight for about 4 months so that is good.

 ...no comments about the butts? lol

Sounds like you are doing all of the right things.

Actually, I was going to ask where you bought them.  My daughter tried that Booty Pop that they advertised on TV and hated it.  I should ask her if she still has it.  My poor butt left the building a long time ago.  If it were possible to have a negative ass that would be me.

If I remember correctly, I picked them up at Fredricks ;) -- I think you can find them just about anywhere. Good luck, mine was great!!!

One funny story. I was staying the night with a girlfriend and of course she knew about the "butt". The next day when I was packing up to head home, she picked up my butt and said, don't forget this!" I grabbed it from her and said, of course, can't forget that! She said, "Yeah, you don't want to leave that here with me, I would take it all over town and take pictures of it. Like, here is Jen's but at city hall, here it is again at Peets, oh and here it is on a hike!" I rolled over laughing. I think that was about the funniest thing I had ever heard.

So, lesson learned: Don't leave the butt behind!! (hardie har har)

You got me thinking so I went on Ebay and found a pair of padded panties.  I never thought of that.  At least this way my jeans won't be so baggy in the britches.  If I like them I may buy some more.

Hang in there, we are all here for you!! Every single day!

Thank you so much!

Tazz and Jen, what a great idea for the butt.  I love it.  Mine sure is gone, but it left cute (haha) little ruffles of skin where it connects to my legs.  I think you can pad your whole lower half, thighs and all if you want to but the butt probably give you enough extra.

I'm working in the therapy pool every day basically have have just decided if I look awful, so what.  At least I am skinny and the rest of them are fat.  One woman asked if I had lost a lot of weight but other than that, no one says anything.  My extra skin floating around in the water is something to behold.  Pretty amazing.  And I was always a great floater when I was fat.  Now I sink like a stone.

Hang in there Tazz, things will get better.  Atleast you aren't still losing.  School will start soon and you will be engaged in something besides winter.  Your friends are probably trying to be nice.  A "friend" told me the other day I really had lost too much and didn't look healthy anymore.  When I told her I hadn't lost any since Oct, she was amazed.  Personally, she's way MO and I think she is jealous.  Oh yeah, my hair is way short and either it looks really bad or not many are commenting either.  Pretty funny.