X-Post: Post-ops at goal

Have you ever actually had days where you felt so emotionally crappy that you still wish you had your fat for insulation? I feel that was today I think. I need some mental strategies to cope.

I totally agree with you. I always say.. "Life was easier when I was 450 lbs".

Maybe today would be a good day to pull out some "previous you" pictures & relive how those moments you see in the pictures felt... what your head was saying during the events...

May not be a strategy that works for you, but for me, it often was a strong reminder of the emotional turmoil - embarrassment, discouragement, full range of emotions I felt living within the moat of obesity for over 35 years...

That fat was not my friend.
That fat was not your friend.

It's a reminder worth revisiting.

All the best to you!

Judy

Thank you Judy. I know the fat is not my friend...and honestly, I'd feel at least 10 times worse then...because I have so much more positive to focus on now.

Oh, by the way Amy - me was "preachin' to the choir" - it is an emotional growth opportunity /struggle that I battle with as well...

For the record:  it is the struggle to break out of the cocoon that develops the wing strength of the butterfly to fly free of it's "entombment"...

...I'm a'thinkin' my "wings" are getting might strong!

I have spent so many years in therapy...one would think that I'd be past days like this...*sigh*

Amy, I just read your blog & it's so good to finally read about someone who has had WLS & has made it to their goal weight.  I'm just at the stage where I'm seeking a referral for lap band surgery and it is all very scary and new to me.   I can so relate to your journey though as I've struggled with this weight for so many years.  When you talk about the fear of putting the weight back on, I can understand how that would be such a very real anxiety provoking jolt - hopefully you will find the support & caring that you need in the community to help you work through that.  Although it will likely always be there to an extent I imagine it will dissipate with time as you settle into maintenance.  I find that as I am reading these posts I am starting to feel a real affinity and a genuine bonding with others who I know are going through much of the same feelings I've experienced.  I'm so grateful to have found this site.   Anyway, Girl, you keep up the good work.  You are doing absolutely fantastic and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.  You are such a great role model for those of us coming up behind you.  Thank you so much.
                                                          Citykitty

Thank you Citykitty...thank you so much. *hugs*

Hey Amy

I do have those days where I just wish I could eat, thinking that it would make me feel better. I also have huge regrets from time to time that I couldn't just do this whole thing on my own, especialy when I am having a bad few days and everything I eat seems to make me sick. I thought at a year out I would "get it" and know what to do and what not to do. I guess I really do know, but making my head realize that I shouldn't eat something or that I shouldn't take that extra bite just doesn't work sometimes... ugh!!!

Hang in there Amy. I don't post often but I am on the boards quite a bit lurking and I know you have a lot of positives in your life... You will get through this spell and things will get better...

Sending positive vibes your way...

Stay Sweet

Donna