The big girls going to the beach
Yep, this chicks going to Myrtle Beach next week with my oldest son (13). My younger two (6 and 7) will be with their dad for a weeks vacation with him. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the beach, the water the sand everything about it makes me smile! Im so excited! But Im SO anxious about the....dum dum dum....POOL! I have one swimsuit that Ive had forever, and I always wear a tshirt or tank top over it. I feel so self conscious when I go though. And I hate that feeling. I want to have fun like everyone else, enjoy my hard earned vacation and get some sun....but I feel like every eye in the place, especially that of the younger boys....are on me. I try to have the attitude of "if you dont like it dont look at it" or "kiss my ass, Im just as good as you"....and at least ACT like im ignoring their looks ( or what I percieve as looks who knows maybe they ARENT looking at me after all)....but its hard.
And aside from that, I also have to contend with how TIRED I get when I do things like this. I love to travel, but it wears me out. Heck, walking around Walmart wears me out, let alone a 7 hr drive there and 7 hrs back, walking to and from the beach, around teh shops etc. I also have a gallstone that Ive not yet had addressed and after being on my feet a while it really starts acting up.
Please pray for me that me and son have a good time and I can let donw my guard and have some fun. Im a single mom of 3 I work full time and darn it, I NEED this. Even fat chicks like a day at the beach.
I think we probably all have been in your shoes. You just keep telling yourself you deserve this break, because you do. The way I see it you have two full time jobs being a mother and another job. You do deserve to have fun on your vacation. I don't know the answer on how to relax and have a good time, you will have to find that one within yourself. Just think, your son will never be 13 again and there will come a time (unfortunately very soon) when he won't want to go to the beach with his mom. Take advantage of this opportunity and go and have a good time with him. You will thank yourself for it in the not so distant future.
I do believe in the power of prayer, so I will send up many prayers this week that you have let yourself have a good, no great , time.
darlene
I too have always been self-conscious of what other thought, still am!! However, one BIG thing to remember is, you will never see these people again, it not like it is somewhere local. Just hold you head high, wear your bathing suit and baste in the glory of being with your son!! I will pray for both of you!!

I just came home from Myrtle Beach, that is my old stomping grounds. You will have a blast, don't worry about what others are doing you just concentrate on having fun with your son. I was there for a month because my father is very ill and will be going back soon might even be next week depends on if I can get another place here rented and get my stuff moved. I was supposed to move back home but it costs way to much at the time. I will send up prayers for you that you may enjoy yourself and will be safe.... Hugs
Donna S
Cameron, NC
My philosophy is, if you are away from home what does it matter!
Go, enjoy yourself, sun yourself and swim to your hearts content.
You are in a group of strangers you will probably never see again and it is okay if they want to stare and look. Just imagine that they are all adoring you and soak it all in.
They are, after all, giving you all the attention... :)
At least this is my theory and I really have a great time!!!
Rest as often as you need to and make pit stops for a face washing and good cold water and it will help rest you up for your journey.
God bless you and HAVE FUN!!!!

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