Good morning Tuesday

Hello sweet Vickie....I am so sorry...I know this is so hard on you. I am saying extra special prayers for Carrie and Christie. My heart is so heavy thinking about how  hard this is for them too.

You however are the best....yes....Butch knows you love him and he is aware of your touch and feel of you being in the room. He will go peacefully. He has done all he needed to do and is ready to go. Keep reminding him that you and the girls are okay.

The last person I was with for three days was Pam's mom at hospice. About two years ago.Little by little her body just shut down. She fell into a deep sleep one afternoon and was gone. It was very peaceful. She had cancer that started in one lung and spread everywhere very quickly. You talking about Butch's pain reminds me of her. God Bless Butch!!

You know how much I care about you, Butch and your family.

Much love  and oodles of hugs  to you  connie d 

Vic,

Relief is always one of the feelings that we sometimes feel so guilty about. When my mother died, and I was a very young child, I remember praying so hard for god to cure her and when he didn't I prayed that she would die so she could be out of her constant pain.  The last few hours before she died, she had been very comatose and when she was a wake, she was confused, and she had her eyes open and I was holding her hand and all my siblings were around her bed, and I said, Mama, I love you and very clearly she said, I love you too...those were the last words we spoke to each other and I cannot think of any better words to say.  She died a few hours later. I was so sad for her to be gone but I was so relieved that she was no longer in pain.  You will get through this and you will grow from this but for a long while, you are going to hurt so much.  Losing a parent is one thing and it's a big thing, but losing the father of your children, your best friend, the one person you can sit in a room with and just be.  You are in my thoughts.  

I was at my mothers side when she passed.  It was the most heartbreaking and yet the most beautiful moment if my life.  She woke up, opened her eyes, looked at my sister, and then turned to look at me.  She did not speak but her eyes were so clear and sparkling, we knew she was seeing the glories of heaven.  

Put your trust in The Lord and then, when the time comes, let Him carry you.  You know He will.  Don't worry about how you will react, just be present in the moment.  Love you from a far, Vickie.  Xoxo

Vickie I was with mom for 72 hrs before she died,   sometimes sh e was lucid   some times the demon had her ( demenia  I considered it a demon as it took mom from us at times.)   I couldn't have been any place else.   She was glad I was there  and I know  she knew she was loved and would be missed.  

You are there for Butch.   At this point  its what you can do .    Just remember its ok for you to feel pain  loss and all that goes with this time.   remember the hospice is there for you and your girls also.    You do what you need to do .   It doesn't matter what others think.   Prayers for peace and strength for all of you!