It's Friday, what are y'all doing?
Yes, Grand Rapids is a wonderful place, nice folks and beautiful sub divisions throughout the area. My DIL lived there for a couple of years and I have several friends that live in GR.
I live basically half way between GR and Kalamazoo. So I go shopping at both places.
You have a great weekend and I hope your finally got a good sleep!
Hi Eileen and other OFF friends,
When I can't get to sleep I take a Xanex...one prescription lasts years so I have no fears of getting hooked on them. Have you ever tried that Eileen? I was quite wound up tonight so I took one.
The Mom experiment ended today. She was doing so well in the past weeks, but then she went into a deep dementia for 4 days, fell again, needed 24 hour care, couldn't (wouldn't- who knows?) get out of bed- so after a family pow wow I called the ambulance. She's in the hospital tonight, but she won't be going home again. I told her that and she said OK but she forgot in the next hour. My brother was caring for her when she went downhill- he had never seen it and was devastated, crying... I was glad that he did see what I had seen several times. I'm not sorry that we did this... we tried SO hard to keep her at home, but she was obviously never going to be able to be alone and we just can't give up our lives to keep her there. I'm OK with our choice. I'm relieved... my life has been very hard for the past two months. And Mom really has not appreciated it- it's not her fault- her brain is shot. Her body is very healthy for 85- no problems at all. She will live quite a few more years I think. My brother said that he can now see that at some not so distant point she may not know us at all. I agree... but the mourning has been happening for me for quite some time... she is really already gone.
What a crazy week... our air conditioner has been on the blink for a couple of weeks- that is quite hard on me when I do come home- our temps have been in the 100s the whole time. It will be fixed, but you just have to wait in line.
Today I will be sitting at the hospital...my family is coming too. I'm going back to bed for a few more hours first. I feel like I need to sleep for a week.
Happy Friday to all of you! Let's all embrace the quality of our lives right now! We take so much for granted.
Julia
When I can't get to sleep I take a Xanex...one prescription lasts years so I have no fears of getting hooked on them. Have you ever tried that Eileen? I was quite wound up tonight so I took one.
The Mom experiment ended today. She was doing so well in the past weeks, but then she went into a deep dementia for 4 days, fell again, needed 24 hour care, couldn't (wouldn't- who knows?) get out of bed- so after a family pow wow I called the ambulance. She's in the hospital tonight, but she won't be going home again. I told her that and she said OK but she forgot in the next hour. My brother was caring for her when she went downhill- he had never seen it and was devastated, crying... I was glad that he did see what I had seen several times. I'm not sorry that we did this... we tried SO hard to keep her at home, but she was obviously never going to be able to be alone and we just can't give up our lives to keep her there. I'm OK with our choice. I'm relieved... my life has been very hard for the past two months. And Mom really has not appreciated it- it's not her fault- her brain is shot. Her body is very healthy for 85- no problems at all. She will live quite a few more years I think. My brother said that he can now see that at some not so distant point she may not know us at all. I agree... but the mourning has been happening for me for quite some time... she is really already gone.
What a crazy week... our air conditioner has been on the blink for a couple of weeks- that is quite hard on me when I do come home- our temps have been in the 100s the whole time. It will be fixed, but you just have to wait in line.
Today I will be sitting at the hospital...my family is coming too. I'm going back to bed for a few more hours first. I feel like I need to sleep for a week.
Happy Friday to all of you! Let's all embrace the quality of our lives right now! We take so much for granted.
Julia
Sweet Julia my heart is heavy that you and yours are going thru this. I have walked this road. My Mom was "already gone" 20+ years before she died at age 91. She did not know me as an adult, I had become so fat she didn't recognize me. When I visited her, she would always comment how she had a daughter named Monica, just like I did...but I was a total stranger to her. You are doing the right thing. God bless and sustain you thru this trauma torn time.
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My dear Julia. . .
I send you love and warm wishes as you "mourn" your Mom, as her body still is here and sometimes you will glimpse the person that she was to you, it is not easy having to deal with this kind of thing and I know what it is not from first person experience but from my cousin Donna's experience and since we are like sisters, she came to me on several occasions asking if she was doing the right thing, when much of what you describe went on with my Great Aunt Mary, who is 96 now, but hardly knows her own daughter or what her husband's name was. . . find peace in your decision, as you are making sure she is cared for with dignity.
Yes, we do take so much for granted at times, live, love and laugh as often as life allows, because it is all so fleeting. . .
Hugs, Laureen
I send you love and warm wishes as you "mourn" your Mom, as her body still is here and sometimes you will glimpse the person that she was to you, it is not easy having to deal with this kind of thing and I know what it is not from first person experience but from my cousin Donna's experience and since we are like sisters, she came to me on several occasions asking if she was doing the right thing, when much of what you describe went on with my Great Aunt Mary, who is 96 now, but hardly knows her own daughter or what her husband's name was. . . find peace in your decision, as you are making sure she is cared for with dignity.
Yes, we do take so much for granted at times, live, love and laugh as often as life allows, because it is all so fleeting. . .
Hugs, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Oh Julia, what a difficult time you've had with this situation. You're doing what's right for your mother and for you.
Things seem to have changed so quickly as I remember so well your writing about going to places with your mother - the symphony was one venture as I recall.
I hope that you are able to get some quality time for you to relax and enjoy yourself before it's time to go back to school.
Margaret
Things seem to have changed so quickly as I remember so well your writing about going to places with your mother - the symphony was one venture as I recall.
I hope that you are able to get some quality time for you to relax and enjoy yourself before it's time to go back to school.
Margaret
Julia:
So sorry you are going through this. You are right, she needs to be in a facility that can care for her 24/7. Her mind isn't there all the time anymore.
As for Xanex, I might have to ask my doc about this. I think the problem was I had been on 60 mg of Cymbalta, was running out and didn't have the money to refill until payday, had only 3 30mg left, so I had gone to 1 pill for three days, and my body knew something was wrong ... so anxiety, sleeplessness, itchiness ... plus ...
I made a big mistake in the paper today. I left out a whole jump of a story and also left a label off a briefs package. Now, the label is small potatoes, but the jump ... that's a big thing. It was checked by the sports writer in charge last night, and she didn't catch it, and the guy who checks the paper off the press didn't catch it. I know I'm going to catch holy hell for this ... what can I say, I was rushing to get it done, I was late as it was, I was frazzled ... I was tired. I have never made a mistake that bad.
Anyway, not much else to say, I'm so tired right now, sore, in pain, so glad I don't have to go to work today.
So sorry you are going through this. You are right, she needs to be in a facility that can care for her 24/7. Her mind isn't there all the time anymore.
As for Xanex, I might have to ask my doc about this. I think the problem was I had been on 60 mg of Cymbalta, was running out and didn't have the money to refill until payday, had only 3 30mg left, so I had gone to 1 pill for three days, and my body knew something was wrong ... so anxiety, sleeplessness, itchiness ... plus ...
I made a big mistake in the paper today. I left out a whole jump of a story and also left a label off a briefs package. Now, the label is small potatoes, but the jump ... that's a big thing. It was checked by the sports writer in charge last night, and she didn't catch it, and the guy who checks the paper off the press didn't catch it. I know I'm going to catch holy hell for this ... what can I say, I was rushing to get it done, I was late as it was, I was frazzled ... I was tired. I have never made a mistake that bad.
Anyway, not much else to say, I'm so tired right now, sore, in pain, so glad I don't have to go to work today.
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