Need a shoulder to cry on, or just an opportunity to whine

I hate my body right now.  Not my looks, just my entire body.  I have a lot of chronic health issues, and see a lot of specialists.  Here is my latest saga, and bear with me, because it is complicated.

I have been seeing a pain specialist since December of '09.  I have herniated discs, with pinched nerves in my lower back, and down toward the upper part of my butt.  The usual treatment is cortisone shots and a procedure called a rhizotomy, which is where the burn the nerve endings.The nerves eventually grow back, and then we go back to the cortisone shots and then the rhizotomy.  Because of the way the body is designed, it involves cortisone shots, or rhizotomies, on both sides of the spine and a  separate one for the one in my butt.  The doctor does not like giving two shots in one visit. 

Now for the whine.  Up until October, I could schedule these procedures whenever I wanted.  Problem is, in October, I developed a pulmonary embolism, and was put on Coumadin for life.  I can't get the shots or the rhizotomies unless I have been off the Coumadin for about a week.  My hematologist puts me on a med called Lovenox, which I must inject daily, to protect me from throwing another clot.  So, now, I must call the hematologist's office every time I schedule a procedure, and get the Lovenox shipped to me from a special pharmacy, and get the instructions as to when to start the Coumadin back up, and at what dose.

I had a rhizotomy scheduled for Wednesday, but saw a gastrointestinal doctor, because I have been having serious pain in my pouch, reminiscent of ulcers I have had in the past.  Now, I have an endoscopy scheduled for July 8th.  I called the hematologist's office and found out they like me to put two weeks between procedures, so I have to push the rhizotomy back to the end of July.  I have to find out if I have an ulcer, because I have had bleeding ulcers, and being on Coumadin that would not be good. 

So, I am dealing with the chronic pain for longer.  Of course, I can't take NSAIDs because of the RNY.  I am a recovering alcoholic, so I won't do well with narcotics.  The alternative meds are useless. 

In the meantime, I started my training in my new job, and am questioning if I am ready to return to work, with all these issues cropping up.  Fortunately, my supervisor told me she does not need me weekdays in July or August at this point.  I have some weekend dates, which is good because I can schedule all this junk without having to miss work. 

If you are the praying type, I need a miracle, or at least strength to get through this without falling into a funk. 

If you got this far, you are a trooper.  Thanks. 

Also, I am having computer difficulties and can't fix it till I get my check from the School District I retired from, as my bank account has a negative balance.

Thanks for listening.

Hugs,
Trish

Trish,
So far everyone's prayers have been working for me and my cancer.  So I will say daily prayers for your healing and relief from pain.  Is there anything you can do with the way you sleep or sit that can give you relief?  Traction or manipulation by a chiropractor?  Sorry if I appear to not have a clue to what you have already tried.  I hope you don't have an ulcer.   I hope you can work out what you need to have when you need it.
(((HUG)))
Bev

Trish,
 You are in my heart and prayers     Mag      

Trish, I sure understand some of what you are going through, at least the chronic pain part. I used to get the shots in the back ... I got lumbar facet shots, but now I have crappy insurance which doesn't cover them until you meet the deductible, then only 80 percent, so I can't afford them. So now I live on ice packs and vicodin and muscle relaxers. I too have bulging discs, plus a bad knee that should have been fixed after two knee replacements on the same knee (it hasn't happened).

Fortunately, I don't have the blood clots. I missed that fun (I'm being sarcastic ... I know it's not fun). I also don't have the ulcers, but I do have chronic acid reflux, not cured by WLS at all. I'm on twice daily prilosec; and I have Barrett's esophagus, so I have to get scoped every two years. I should be doing that this year, but I'm sure my insurance wouldn't pay for it, so I'll wait until next year when I have money on my FSA again.

I understand the money worries, too. Wish I could help you. You're in my thoughts ... not really a praying type, but I hope things work out for you. Chronic pain is a ***** I live with it constantly too.

Trish , I am a prayer and GOD BLESS YOU honey ...you sure have way more problems than  I do and I feel for you..
On the pain part , let me tell you of a pain releiver over the counter I was told I can take.  It is Percogesic ...somehow it works wonderfully for me .. I take Nexium everyday for Reflux and since I take that the Percogesic is a godsend usually when I have pain . I have lots of tummy minor issues , IBS and reflux but nothing like you have ..
I am sorry your hating yourbody right now ,,,I do that most days as I always though if I got to a certain size that would FIX everything i disliked about it ,,,NOTTTTTTTTTTT
Anyway , praying for you and hope that you will have some peace ..
Hugs
Shirley

Just lost a long post again. Trish you can WHINE,RANT,CRY,SCREAM, WHATEVER. You are in pain and having to deal with all that is going on with your health and being in such pain is almost too much to bear. We are here for you. Prayers are part of my life all day. You are here for me and I for thee. Hugs, Monica

Wish you had one doctor to just adjust and address all your problems...too many cooks in the body.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs Trish))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Okay, I'm keeping you in my daily prayers. Try not to fall into a dark hole. Take each minute/hour or whatever it takes. Back pain and chronic pain is nothing to sneeze at. You do have a right to whine so whine away. Keep posting/venting. You have a lot of health issues and sometime is you just deal with one...that's hard enough, you have several. Hang in there and hopefully the doctors can help you. We have a wonderful Spine clinic where I work.
Remember...health comes first, you can deal with weight issues later. Health first always.
I'm listening, you are not alone, your feelings are validated girl! Hang in there. Hugs Debbie

 I too am on coumadin for the long haul and it is a B#$%@#.  Everything that I take has to be cleared my my doctor.  I used to take otc meds without even thinking about it.  Not any more.
I know how frustrating it is, especially when you are in pain.  Prayers for you are being said for you.
I have back issues as well but for me traciton and PT always seems to do the trick.  Sorry you are having to deal with this.

Oh Trish -- my thoughts and prayers are with you.  Trusting that God will not give you more than you can bear, according to His Word.

Somedays I feel like my body is really giving up (I'm 72) and all these surgeries have taken a big toll as well.  But I manage to keep on keeping on and praying that God will give me the strength to accomplish all I need to do.

Always know you are welcome to whine as much as you need to on this board.  We are all caring and loving people.

Sending gentle hugs and love,
Pat R.

Trish...my heart is breaking for you. Yes, I will keep you in my daily prayers. I have been praying for you but I will be sure to add a few special ones too. 

Chronic pain is a bi@#h!!!  I have COPD, Fibromyalgia, Arthritis etc.. I have horrible pain which is nothing compared to the pain you suffer.

I am always just a post away. If you want my phone number I would be glad to give it to you.
We are all here for you...the good and the bad. You are not whining!!

Much love and many hugs.....connie d