Hi y'all it's Thursday

Hey everyone:

Jus****ching the DVR version of the White Sox game ..  . their pitcher threw a dandy of a game, 3-hitter. He's coming back from a major surgery last, tore a muscle that attaches his shoulder to his back. So tired and sore tonight ... had five pages to do and a snarky note from my boss telling me to make deadline tonight if I did anything else. She said she was busy with her pages and taking a job candidate to dinner. I could say more, but why? Started to, then deleted it. Just not worth worrying about it. I can only do the best I can do.

One more day of work ... I'm so tired and so looking forward to the weekend. My body hurts all over. So what else is new?

Anyway, chat away ... I'll check back when I wake up later.

Good morning Eileen and OFF family to post later. Happy Thursday and it's wet and dreary here in Kalamazoo. Give me sunshine! I think we will get it tomorrow.

Ugh! Yesterday after eating my lunch pouchy was grouchy and you know the pouch always wins!
Ate a lean cusine of chicken and lasagna and it just didn't settle. After 4 years the grouchy pouchy rears it's ugly head. So today I'm sipping on water and taking my vitamins right now. I'll have an EAS protein drink for breakfast and see how it goes after that. Hot tea for later.

I didn't make it to the pool for a workout but that is my plan today after work. Take care and hugs to all of us! Debbie

yes; its thursday-that means i have to leave early to go up to school--work in the learning ctr on their computers to do some of my Word homework--i have an older version here and my dell is too old to handle all of the USBs that i need for internet and flashdrive....its just easier to use their computers!and the laptop doesnt have a disc drive for the program that we test on....ok-nuff..

eileen,,,i can imagine you hurt physically( i did some yard work and am in such pain i cannot describe!!!!) and i know that your job puts stresses on you--i am gonna say something here which may not sit well- and if not-please know that i said it with concern not to be mean.....if i (and i am not the only one -im just the only one spking) said half or even a tenth of what you do negatively about my job on here my butt would be jobless....they watch what we do "socially" and that is one reason i am not so free to tallk about my life/work....whether i am content in my job or not; it Is my job and i get paid to do it ....and i know where the door is if i am that unhappy......i know that you are really struggling with your job and etc and i applaud you so much for the new start when you packed part and parcel to go down there......and i understand....i just really feel that you say way too much on here about all of the things wrong with it and i pray you don;t get canned.....i know that you are alone and i know that you need to vent-we all do!!!!! i just wonder if you couldnt word it in a less problematic(for your job) more cautious way.i feel this way about judy g 's job too--guess i really should hit delete but-well---

maybe ill be like Red and pull away -i think it probly would be best for everyone for awhile....I can say that i havent been a very positive, motivating,supportive force around here lately and i am NOT fishing....nor am i threatening to take my toys--i'm just sayin.....i think my time has come...those who wish to know how to communicate with me.....

i have my own problems to work out and i think i need to pull them inward so that i can own them.....

dreary this morning.....need to post on the school discussuon board for grades then get showered and dressed and outta here....
anyhow- hugs and prayers...

Margo, say what you want; I have a thick skin. As for what I say, if they want to snoop on me, I don't care anymore. I felt that way last night ... don't care. They lied to me about this job right and left. I don't plan to continue on through their "Design Studios anyway ... and maybe earlier. I walk in there every day and say hello and no one says a word to me. It's the most unfriendly place I've ever been. I hate being there. I give my best effort every day, I work my butt off and it's not enough. I come in there with headaches, backaches, knee aches ... but it's not enough. So if they want to fire me because of something I've said here, so be it. I don't care anymore.

Margo,

It is so easy for an employer to read posts that their folks are putting on the social networks.  I give a seminar about the very topic and always have one or two folks who tell about not getting a job or getting fired from a job because of some form or another that they posted unflavorable post.  

On the negativity that is so abundant: it is hard to tell when to draw the line between venting and just being so negative that people dread reading--that is why I quit posting.  With my wls problems and my aversion to the many religious and political comments that seem to just naturally roll off the screens of so many people, well, I just stopped posting and read only a few of you guys' posts.  

I hope you don't completely stay away because you are one of the few people that I always check up on when I drop by.  

One more thing:  you know school, work, and taking care of an elerderly parent can being draining, so take care of yourself.   

Good Morning Eileen, OFF Posters,

Well thankfully it is Thursday and I am looking forward to this evenings meeting with my good friend Owen and hitting our AA homegroup, otherwise all is well, though I am still not a millionaiery.

Life is good if I choose to see it from that angle, some days my filter is clouded and I only see the downside, but most days I choose to focus on the good of my life, such as health, not without my aches and pains, but if I focus on them, I feel the pain more and so I ignore and tolerate what I can, as that is my choice and my pain tolerance happens to be pretty high.  I think it also comes from years of not having anyone to rely on and just sucking it up and doing what I must in spite of what I am feeling physically and sometimes even mentally, I remember years ago when I was going through the illness and subsequent death of my Mom, who died a month after the 9/11 tradgedy, in which two folks I knew died, and my marriage was definitely in it's final throes, work was crazy busy and I was close to a nervous breakdown, my supervisor at work suggested I might take a paid leave of absence, I remember telling her that my job was something that kept me moving, that if sat home with all the pain in my life, emotional and physical, much of my physical is a manifestation of my emotional state, I would probably fall into a morass of self pity that I might not recover from.  I choose to go on an anti-depressant to help me get through, and after 4 months I got off it, because it made me feel like I was going through the motions of living without any connection to my emotions and I felt as though I were a Stepford person.  Anyway, I don't know why I am talking about this, guess I'm just thinking out loud here and saying that we all have our pains, physical and emotional and it can get us so down, but if we fight it, try and focus on what is good about us, our lives, we can and do come out of it with a sense of pride.

Have a wonderful day and if it's not wonderful, try to find one thing that is right with your world and focus on that.  Wishing peace and strength for the life challenges that we all face and need extra for. . .

Hugs, Laureen

Good morning everyone,

I just got back from taking my little Lulu to the vet to have her teeth cleaned and get her shots.  She was shaking like a leaf and I feel like the meanest "mom" ever!  Go back to pick her up around 3 p.m.

Silly me, I got to the vet's at 7:30 a.m., and they don't open until 8 a.m.  So I decided to go get some breakfast while we were waiting.  I love McDonald's sausage biscuits, but I decided it would be better (aka more WLS friendly) to go to Sonic and get a breakfast burrito.  Ha!  I got the burrito and some apple slices.  Bleh, phooey!  The flour tortilla was thick and chewy and rubbery.  The apple slices were bitter.  I didn't eat but a bite or two of the whole thing and now I feel a little nauseous.  I wish I had just waited.

I had another little meltdown last night with my eating.  I swear, it's like my head gets the best of me.  I eat dinner early because I'm hungry, and then I don't know how to get through the rest of the evening without snacking.  Why can't I do this?  I eat a good dinner, plenty of protein, so I'm not physically hungry.  But then I find myself wandering in and out of the kitchen, opening the pantry, opening the frig, opening the freezer . . .  always looking for something to nibble on!  This has got to stop! 

I'm feeling really sicky now after my Sonic breakfast.  Think I'll go lie down awhile and see if that helps.

Best wishes for a Happy Thursday to all!

vickie; many of us-especially "early out" ( which you kinda still are) had to switch to maybe 4-6 mini meals raher than traditional breakfast lunch dinner in order to get past the after dinner hunger- a "good snack" is not a bad thing....even just a cheese stick might help-or a hard boiled egg...

be gentle on you!

Sober 198 days and so proud of me. I have been better and I have been worse. Still feel like the Hulk. Don't want to do anything or eat anything, just sulk and hulk.
Hope Carla has a great flight and time in IL. All be well, safe, and happy.

Dear Eileen, Margo, and All to follow,
     @ Eileen--- I'm so sorry that you are in physical pain. I know how that feels. Also, I know how it is to have a job that is a mental drain. I feel bad for you.
      @ Margo--- What I am going to say may sound negative but is meant with a caring heart. You have been through a difficult time in your life. I wish I could do something to make it better for you. I don't want you to pull back from us, but that is your choice. I think you are a wonderful person.
     We are here to offer support and encouragement as well as being able to vent in hopes of not turning to food to soothe us. I think that the risk of Eileen or Judy's bosses are going to happen to find OH or the OFF is minimal. If they want to vent about their jobs they should be free to do so. I don't want people to be afraid to say what is weighing heavily on their hearts. This is a very bad job market. Maybe it's not possible for them to change jobs even if they want to. We all need money to keep us going.
      I personally am stressed and depressed about my medical and money problems. I think my depression would be worse if I didn't have OH and Off to turn to. The good news is that I have not turned to food or drink to easy my situation. I am working hard to keep up my protein levels up and fit all my meds and vitamins in. I have a watch that has an alarm. It finally dawned on me to set it for when I need my next meds and other things. That reminds me to eat as well. I should have had a routine before this but better late than not at all. lol 
    This is a question I should have ask a long time ago. How do I know what is good fat and bad fat? I certainly don't to being taking bad things into me body.
     Thanks to everyone for your help. As ever,   Mag