Monica's musings NOT from the road
So here I sit in cold, windy, more snow on the way MA. I am surviving......but it ain't nice. As hard as San Antonio and Tyler were last winter and spring.....with the heat, heat, heat; it is easier being undressed than living in layers of clothes. My feet beg for nakedness.
But as I said I am here in MA and this is where I, we need to be. Lots going on....cabin fever, 2 fun Gkids, a strong willed-hard working-going through a divorce-used to doing her own thing Daughter, no car/truck, husband going though upper teeth removal and getting dentures, he is hurting with 6 teeth gone, has a sinus infection, arthritis bad, back out again--SO he is in a VERY ugly mood--ouch; and I have some health problems........
I had my first post PS mammo done and "they" saw something. I go back for more films on Thursday. I had my last mammo in 2005 before the BR and BL and the path report on the removed material was good. I am hoping that with the much smaller girls and scar tissue that is why they need more films.
Also my iron studies show low levels and my chol/trigs are high, so my PCP wants to find out whats going on. He asking for a check up with the colonoscopy doctor, ha ha. He wants me taking more iron along with a stool softner oh joy. After the high drama of last spring in Tyler at the hospital for 4 days, the numb right foot and leg, my alcohol abuse (I am so proud of me and my stopping the drinking), and weight loss, I want a time out from medical issues and it is not happening. Frustrated, discouraged, and feeling helpless and stuck in a corner. OK, I know I am whining, but I got no one else to "*****" to except you all. Just had to get it off my chest that I am not doing so great and I really care that I am not doing so great. When I think of how down I was last winter and spring and almost gave it all up; I am glad to be here, sober, among family and friends and that I have internet access so I can keep in touch with all of you and the goings on in your lives. I realize I am not alone, but belong to a wonderful group of people sharing my path and journey as I share their path and journeys too.
Thanks for being there for all of us and especially ME you super group of losers.....the best winners in life.
Monica
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I can hear your worries and frustrations tonight and yet I know that you will overcome these obstacles in your life. Your daughter is so lucky to have you in her corner. We do things for our children and grandchildren that only us with children and grandchildren can understand. They are special to us and we put our own needs aside for them.
I will be hoping for a good mammo report on Thursday. When it comes to our health, we have to give up control and in doing so we feel helpless. It becomes frustrating and yet, what can we do but wait??
Take care of you,
Shelia
When Joyce John and Carl and I get together in North CArolina, Asheville yes definately you can come and meet up with us. I think you are only about 30 miles from there.
Carl and I are going to be there about a week. 2 days with Joyce and John then with our friends for the other 5.
PM me with your phone number and address.
or you can email me [email protected]
My thoughts are with you. I hate being so cold and it can get somewhat cold here in the Sarasota area. So I wrap up also.
good luck on the Iron front. I havent had to deal with low Iron but who says that wont happen.
I had labs drawn for my Gastric Bypas Doc today so I can take the results to him when I go to Denver on March 2nd. I need to see him bad!!!!! I had a lot going on this past year.
So hang in there I know the Grands are keeping you up to par.
Carla
I pray the girls are ok,and that DH has less pain soon.
Your daughter sounds like a tough cookie,wonder where she gets it from...
You hang in there girl,and please keep in touch,you are one of my heroines!!
WHAT WE FEAR,WE CREATE.
Karen C
