16 Days Till Surgery

Well I am officially 16 days from surgery and the nerves are at there worst, and I am completely on edge. Every time I look at my children I wonder if these are our last moments..... Did anyone else feel this? If yes, how did you deal with it? Its not worth dying for me... and I don't think I will die, or I wouldn't do the surgery- but still I cant help to think the worst so generally I am in a rotten mood. It reminds me of when I pregnant, and I could cry at a drop of a needle. Everything is bothering me. For example, my boss sent me an email this morning that was a little harsh due to some blatant misunderstanding, lack of communication. I replied, but I was in complete tears! That's just not me!!!!! Is this normal? Ofcourse my husband says I will not die, and I will be fine... and really will not discuss the negative with me........... Yesterday, I started watching my food intake closely. I started my protein shakes...and eating salads. I did ok..and loss 2 lbs of fluid! So .. I am officially on the loosing side :/. If you got this far, thanks for reading!

Hi Michelle~ I just sent you a private e-mail, for some odd reason it would not let me send my reply to you, so IF this goes through check your private e-mail. Hope this takes this time. Crece

I got it! Thank you so much, you are such a wonderful person........................... Michelle

Hi sweetheart, I see you got my response, as I did yours. You are in great hands with Dr. A. and so what if ya had a few pieces of candy before surgery, guarantee ya one thing wont be after surgery. Lighten up on yourself, Don't be to hard on yourself either. This whole GA. gang is here for ya too. I know quit a few who will bathe ya in some prayers before, during and after for you hubby and the kiddies. If I could be there I certainly would be there for ya. Thank you for such a nice e-mail and I am here for ya for anything all you have to do is just ask. es & ing for joy that your day is almost here. Crece

It is normal to be worried. Don't let yourself get to upset about it. Honestly it will make your blood pressure extremely high and you won't be able to sedate easily. (Not trying to scare you - just giving information.) This is a major life changing surgery and it's really normal to be worried about the "what if's". I'd be more concerned if you weren't worried about the possibilities of what could happen. It makes you realize that there ARE risks but it will make you more grateful after if/when things turn out good for you. You'll be in our prayers! If you need ANYTHING please ask..... Dee Dee 350/168/159