THANK YOU IS NOT ENOUGH

I posted yesterday and I didn't get to thank everyone for supporting me through that rough spot. I didn't want to get into a doctor bashing discussion or a religious discussion. You guys saw the real issue and were there. Thanks. I just wanted to be supported in my moment. Thank you for understanding where I was really coming from. I wasn't upset over doctors or religions at all. Yesterday I was upset about having to start the process over again. You understood and said that if you had to stop and move to another doctor for ANY reason after going very far through the WLS process you would be bothered. I didn't get one negative response. Yesterday I really spazzed. I felt like I had the rug pulled out from under me. You know that feeling like the world is spinning and you can't grab on to something to steady yourself. I was all set for an insurance company battle. I didn't see a different issue coming and I had not "planned" for a different issue. There was no more room on my list. I did every thing by the book and even did more that they asked. I called and spoke to everyone from point A to point B. This way I was prepared and I was ready. I did not want any surprises. (Are my control issues showing?.....LOL) For me this goes beyond my beliefs or the doctor's for me this issue was about control. I got a good reminder yesterday that I don't run a cotton picking thing!!! And no matter how much intellectual mumbo jumbo I tell myself, there is no such thing as "perfect". I needed to be reminded that life is messy. It is not a flow chart where the first arrow always leads to a box or another arrow. Sometimes 1 + 1 = 26 and not 2......LOL. Things don't always add up to the perfect stress free "predictable" equation. Life showed me.....I don't actually run anything and I never will......LOL. On the surface, I really do know this..... I guess I just hoped I was different from everyone else somehow......LOL. What is that saying? Let go and let God. That is more than a notion. I STILL have the utmost respect for that doctor and his reputation. Just like I have choices so does he. He just messed up my flow chart.....lol. He moved my cheese. For everyone who posted and who sent private e-mails. Thank You So Much. Even if you didn't understand my religious reasons it didn't matter you were hurt because I was hurt. You respected me and dealt with me as another person in the good struggle of WLS and life. I was deeply touched. Thank You

Hi MM! Isn't this board the greatest? The folks here are unbelievable supportive. I didn't see your post until late this evening, so I haven't posted, but I can certainly understand your frustration with having to start the process completely over! I hope you are able to find a surgeon who is receptive to your beliefs and you two are able to see eye to eye and allow you to move forward with your desire to have the surgery! Good Luck! Tami

Muan, I never did get to respond to you yesterday. Sorry! But it sounds like you have rationalized it all and put it all into perspective. I admire that. I admire the way you have bounced back, dusted yourself off and stood back up ready to go the extra mile. A positive attitude like that will take you far. We never know why things happen as they do, but I have learned that you just have to thank God anyway. He has his reasons and some day will know why. HUgs and blessings to you on your journey gal. Keep your chin up! Tonya