Is it just me?

It's nice to know that your not alone on this and the feelings of depression are normal. I am also going through the same thing you are, I'm soooooo anixious, worried, and yes I have days where I feel down. I worry something will happen to keep me from having the surgery and as I watch my weight keep going higher and higher every week, it's just getting worse. All the what if's: what if I can't go through with it, what if my insurance decides to not approve me....... so many more to even mention, that keep going through my head. I had my appointment with Dr. Bour today and just meeting with him has helped me feel better. When he took me to talk to Lacey about submitting my insurance papers and after he told me that my insurance usually approves in a couple of days, Lacey said she has about six people she has been waiting for over 2 weeks to get approval for with my insurance company. Dr. Bour told her to get on the phone and call them now and start the ball rolling with everyone only because he has never had my insurance company deny anyone. So, they seem to think I should know something in a couple of days. He said if he has to do all of us at one time he will, he doesn't like to keep people waiting. He also said I am probably looking at the end of September at the latest for my sugery, which is about the time frame I had figured on anyway. So now all we have to do is play the waiting game and know in our hearts it will all work out for the best. Hope this is going to make you feel better knowing we all in this together and having the same feelings. Hugs! Mary

Congrats on getting the ball rolling on the insurance! I'm still waiting for my 3 month period to end on 9/8/06. I talked to Lacy this morning and she said that she had my packet ready to go out and it would go out first thing in the morning on 9/8/2006. So, I'm counting down the days!!! It seems like forever. But, I can wait. Rachel

I have gotten so much from reading this post! You are all so inspirational and uplift my spirits so much. I know how you feel Rachel and Jodie. I am having surgery on the 29th and it seemed like when I started it would never happen and now it seems like it has happened overnight. I had to do the 3 month wait too. It felt so long.... Hang in there... It will really speed up soon. When the posts ops said it would be here before you know it...they were right. Dawn, I really appreciate you being so open and loving with your responses. You really encouraged me. I could see myself in all those situations. I think that is what brings us as a group so close...because we can sympathise and understand each other because we have been there and we know what it is like not to find clothes, feel miserable, be in public and be the biggest one there, afraid to go anywhere because you don't know what kind of seats there will be, etc. I love you all! Pam

Jodie...... You are not alone. I can relate to you. I am where you are now, all my test are done and I am now waiting... I have an appointment with Dr. *****ett next Wednesday Aug 23rd. I hope this is the day I get a surgery date. I have Tricare and don't have to take but one NUT class which I already did. I don't have a waiting period, just the time it has taken to get all the appointments. (One of the gals in the office said they have never had a Tricare claim turned down.) I can't seem to think of anything else. I dream about it every night, some good and some bad. I had a dream the insurance turning me down. I feel like it is an obession. I can't read enough. I know I stay on the this site to long, several hours everyday. My family is tired of hearing about it. I really have not waited that long. I started all this the first of June but feel like it is forever. I guess it's hard because the not knowing, you really put your life on hold. You don't want to plan anything because you don't know what the next several months hold. I met a lady in the Monday support group meeting she had her surgery on the 7th of Aug. It was like 5 weeks from the day she had her appointment with Dr. *****ett until her surgery. I am praying mine is sooner but I have put the first of Oct. in my head. I get down also, some days I am afraid I will try to talk myself out of it. Other days I am so excited. I just need a surgery date!! If I get a date at my appointment next Wed. I'll be sure to post. Judy

Ok....I am wiping away the tears!!! This right here is what this board is all about. There is such a bond between all of us. Some of us haven't even met, but there is a bond there. Just like Pam said, I can relate to all of the situations. Our low moments, may not be the same, but the feelings of pain, frustation, disappointment, embarrassment, and the list goes on and on, ARE the same. I just love you all and am so glad that I have you all here to support me when no one else seems to un derstand. You all are the BEST and I am BLESSED to know you!!!!! Thank you!! Melissa

I'm glad you posted. I thought it was just me. I don't know if it is depression, but I'm just so exhausted all the time. Doesn't matter if I sleep 4 hours a night or 10. This week I have done both. Tonight is gonna be another 4 hour night. My papers were sent to the insurance Monday at 11:22 AM. The waiting is horrible. It seems like every 'issue' at work is a hot one and they are determined to drive me insane. (has to be me .... right?) Then on top of it, my project manager (thank god not my boss) keeps asking me if I have a surgery date yet. For God's sake NO.... don't you think I would tell you the instant I know!!!! Enough ranting. I'm going to try to get some sleep. 6:00 comes mighty early now.