Down in the dumps

 Hey everyone! I hope you all are doing great. As far as myself well I'm driving me NUTS!!! I'm now just shy of being 2 weeks post op and I feel like I'm doing this all wrong. I feel like a failure. I hear all these people say how after two bites they are full, well not me. I feel like a fat ass, like I'm eating way to much and maybe my pouch wasn't made small enough. What happens if this doesn't work for me...then I will be hopeless. I know I've lost but I still feel like I'm failing. I'm just able to eat WAY TO MUCH. Here is what I ate yesterday and what I've eaten so far today, any advice would help! Thanks. 5/24 Breakfast:  1/2 cup soy milk 3.5 protein / 50 calories Matrix Cookies and Cream Protein Drink 6 protein / 33 calories Protein Total: 9.5 Calorie Total: 83 LUNCH: 1/2c. low fat small curd cottage cheese 12 protein / 80 calories  2 reduced fat triscuts 1 protein / 18 calories Protein Total: 13 Calorie Total: 98 Dinner: 1/2 cup mashed potatoe 2 protien / 115 calories Protein Total: 2 Calorie Total: 115 Snacks: Isopure Protein Drink 21 protein / 100 calories Nectar Protein Drink 23 protein / 90 calories 3 reduced triscuts 1 protein / 27 calories<-- not all at once 1 tbsp. natural p-nut butter 4 protein / 105 calories Protein Total:49.3 Calorie Total: 322 grand total protein: 73.80 grand total calories: 618 Today 5/25 Breakfast: Dannon light and fit yogart 4protein / 45calories Pure Protein Drink 35protein / 170 calories Protein Total: 39 Calorie Total : 215 Lunch: A lil' gerber entree [ mashed potatoe, turkey and g.beans] 6 protein / 130 calories Protein Total:6 Calorie Total: 130 Dinner:  Plan on having some shrimp ****tail, maybe one of two peices of brocolli Snack:  String Cheese 7 protein  / 80 calories Protein Total 7 Calorie Total 80 Total Before Dinner Protein 52 / Calories 425

Hey Nicole, It doesn't seem like you are eating that much to me.  I have days, sometimes I can't finish 2 -4 ozs sometimes I eat 4 oz and am still hungrey.  I will 4 weeks out on Tuesday and have not lost any more weight for the last 2 weeks.  I am so frustrated and depressed.  Its just the ups and downs after wls I hope it gets better for you (and me) Hugs, Meredith

Hi Nicole!

I am sorry your feeling so down, but if your still losing I wouldn't worry about it. Compare those calories to what you use to eat. I am sure it is considerably lower. Stop stressing girl!!! Your doing fine!!

Debi

Thanks girls! It just feels like I'm eating like a heefer compared to what I thought I would be eating. Debi your right compared to the amount of food I consumed before it isn't much but I still feel like I'm failing. Heres what I ended up having for dinner: Tonight for dinner I had 3 raw shrimp and 4 brocolli florets

You are definitely not eating too much!  I called my nutritionist yesterday to make sure I wasn't over eating as well.  I was worried that I was at 650 to 700 a day.  She told me it was fine!  I can't wait to eat the kind of foods you are though!!!  About a week and a 1/2 before I can.  You are not a failure at all sweetie!  I think you're doing awesome!!!! 

Okay cute one...CHIN UP!      you are not doing bad at all! Your body needs those little bit of calories you are eating to heal.  You are not overeating.  Small bites, chewing and eating slow will help.  You are NOT going to fail!  You are amazing and beautiful and you are going to do this!   It is SO normal to feel what you are feeling.  Once I started eating real food I was thinking OMGOSH I am a pig, lol  then reality hits and you need to eat,  It is fuel for your body...I eat slow...I chew, chew and chew more.  I make my meal last long so I can let it hit and feel when it is enough.  You are okay babes!   You are doing great!!!!!!!

Nicole; Each bariatric program has different nutritional postop plans. Mine for instance had all pts on liquids 15 days, some have people eating in the hospital..Knowing there is no 'right/normal' and that there is only typical on this journey helps refame the negative tapes we have from the past (I will fail at this too). I didn't feel full after 2 bites, again ome never feel full or feel hunger early postop, others feel full quick some never get hunger back..a spectrum of possibilities. It is common fo those to think their pouch was made wrong or theystretched it, not usually...get a cooy of your surgical report you are entitled it will tell u exactly how big it was made. Also swelling and healing is individual u may hel quicker than someone else who is more restricted due to tauma is all. 500-600 cal dy is typical. You may want to consider focusing on protein to fill and satisfy vs arbs (mashed potatos, tiscuits) just a suggestion, carbs slip thru and do not fill and may make hunger return quicker, esp. whennot combines w/ food. Some do not feel full on slider foods such as yogurt, cottage cheese, mashed potatoe etc and do feel full on normal foods esp. proteins. try to consider you are perfect the way you are and on target for your journey. The more you shame yourself about being bad, imperfect, a failure a fat ass etc the more you will fill those roles by self abotageing. Whatever we put out we get back, pt out positive afirmations and the poitivity will come back 10 fold! Challenge your observations for truth look at what u r eating its NOT MUCH.....I think again the cahllenge is the emotional vs rational mind sound as if yours are battleing! hugs PS depression is common postop esp. during hibernation...loss of food, starvation all can add as wedll hormonal changes and surges.. be well. journal all the reason you did this, focus on the healthy lifestyle as a goal not how much u eat or the scale etc. Jamie

You are doing fine....you seem to making healthy food choices too, so as long as theweight is coming off I wouldnt worry.

Nicole, Hun you are eating fine, take your time and learn your new tool. It sure takes time to understand how to work this! I know I am almost 2 years out and STILL learning    Try using www.fitday.com, that place sure helped me keep track of the amount of calories and all that stuff. It is a great place, also you can keep track of your weight loss there. I know even today that I can eat more on some days then others! I think we have to learn how to listen to our bodies and learn what it is asking for. I know for me I was depressed right after my surgery because I was mourning food and that was hard as well. Hang in there hun and give yourself some time, you are only at the start, it sure takes time to learn how to use this new tool. Take care

Nicole, You sound like you are doing wonderful    ......Dont be too hard on yourself......there doesnt seem to be an exact calculator for how and when we will feel full.........and with all the weight you have already lost.........C'mon girl.........you are a big LOSER     ....not a failure!!!!!!!!  You are staying in the area of 600 calories and 60+ protein....that is GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!    right on the money it sounds like to me!!!!!!!!!!!  Thank you for your kind words to my post yesterday....was feeling really down...and wow...you guys sure know how to pick a girl up!!!!!!!    Keep up the FANTASTIC WORK!!!!!  I still hope to be following right behind you.............. Hugs and kisses Jane P.S.  Where is your signature WOOOHOOO!!!!!  Miss that!!!!!!!