Please read....this is my story

I know I haven't posted in some time now.  I have been dealing with a very serious problem.  I didn't want to post because I didn't want to discourage anyone who was thinking about wls or in the process of having wls.  Even though I am going through this I want you all to know I still wouldn't change my decision on having wls....it's still the best thing I could have done for my health.

I had wls in Jan. and in 10 1/2 months I have lost 180 lbs.  However during this journey and because of past issues I had, I developed anorexia.  I refused to believe I had an eating disorder my therapist and dr. kept telling me I was anorexic but I kept saying I wasn't that bad besides most anorexics that I have seen are all skin and bones thats why I had a hard time accepting this diganosis.  I have since seen an eating disorder therapist and she assured me that the outward appearance of an anorexic doesn't make a person anorexic it's the behaviors and beliefs one has about themself and eating.  Even though I have lost so much weight I still feel like I did before my wls.  I do a lot of food restricting and when I do eat I exercise excessively to burn off any calories I took in.  I have learned that eating disorders are more common amoung wls patients then we realize and becoming more so as more people seek wls.  I also restrict my vitamins my dr. told me my brain is dying because I'm not getting the nutrients that my body needs.  I was told today that I will probably be going to an inpatient treatment center for anorexia because I can't take in foods or supplements that I need. 

What I want everyone to get from my story is that please take your vitamins from the get go, and please make sure you start getting all your protein that is required daily.  If you start to obsess about your weight, how you look, weighing yourself excessively, or exercising excessively recongize that and get help soon.  We have always had issues with our body image that is one reason we have wls but don't let the weight loss turn into something deadly like I have done. 

This board is amazing the people on here are so supportive and caring..... please keep me in your prayers as I go on another journey to save my life.....again!

Oh Bev....

How brave you are to come here and tell your story.  I am so thankful that you are going to get the help you need.  And believe me, when you ask for prayer, you will get it!  I'm sure that you will surrounded with prayer.

Do they seem to think that these health issues can be reversed with proper care?  I understand the anorexia but was curious if you will get better with the proper protein and vitamins. 

Keep us posted and once again, thank you for baring your soul.  We are praying for you as you begin this next phase...

Love,

Bev, im so glad that the doctor have finally convinced you of this, i know you and i talked about this some time ago and i encouraged you to talk to them about all you told me. Know that i am praying for you and hope that you will allow them to help you ovhercome the problems you have.

take care of your self and be sure and let us know how you are doing ok love and hugs to you...

HUGS my dear sweet brave lady!!! I am praying for you now and will continue to pray without ceasing!! please let us know how you are doing as we all care very much for you!! I know you can get thru this!! Remember what Renee always says If He brings you to it He can bring you thru it!!! We are all here should you need a should or any support we can offer in any way!!
Please take care of you and return to us when you can, hopefully and prayerfully, happy and whole!!!

HUGS!!
Jeanine

Sweetie my prayers are with you!!!....Im glad you realize you could come here with your story!!!.....I do think it's best to be honest with the things that can go on with WLS here on the board....People should realize it's not as easy as it seems to some.... I don't feel it's the hardest thing Ive ever done in life but it does take more to do this than alot of people realize..... I have had many comments made to me about WLS being the easy way out..... Well my motto is if you aint been there and done that then I don't want to hear what you have to say!!!!
But I do think any one thinking of doing one of the surgeries should know there are different things that you could have to deal with....Knowing them ahead of time can also help them realize earlier if they are having certain issues.....
I wish you all the best and hope your doctors help you with this....God Bless you...     Luv & Hugs...Tammy~ammy

GOD BLESS YOU HONEY !!!

I will keep you in my daily prayers honey yo need to pray and seek God for help on this he will help you bless your heart I know once we have been fat it is hard to see our selves anyive us your differnt but we are .  We are here if you can give us your mailing address so we can keep in touch with you and you can let us know how you are doing thtas up to you .  My e-mail is www.kllawson77.yahoo.com put on there subject obeisty help and your name so I will open it .

Love & Prayers Honey
Karen
Here is my  P.O. BOX and then I willl give you my other after I get a letter from you

Karen Lawson
P.o. Box 144
Iberia , Mo 65486

God is with you    and i am here for you

Bev,

I am so incredibly sorry for all that you have been thru and are going thru now...

If admitting you have the "situation" is half the battle like they say then look how far you already are!  yeah!

You truly are a brave lady to come and share your story and I pray that by doing so you will have changed the coarse of anothers life if it is needed.

Bev, know I will be praying for you till such a time as you let us know you are better.  I know He will be with you as you go for treatment.

Bec

Bev, I have put your name on my prayer calendar and hope you know that by posting this on OH you have done the best thing possible. There are so many on here that will earnestly pray for you.

Keep us posted and remember you are loved!!!!

I am thinking of starting a campaign to get Dr's to consider making it mandatory for WLS seekers to have some intensive pre-surgery counseling. I dont think one or 2 pshyc evals are really enough. I know it might post-pone somes surgerys for a while, but it might save them so much heart ache in the long run.

God bless you sweet girl!

Sweetheart , we have talked and I didn't say anything either because it was your place to tell it here and you did, and you have already taken a big step towards getting well, we are all here for you and will be as long as you need us, your not alone..I know some of us would even take a trip to you if you ever need us..

You are a very good advocate to the newbies to take their vit., proteins and we need FOOD also..
so something good can come from this because you are taking steps to correct them..you have my prayers just take Gods hand and he will not forsake you..love you....vesta

I will keep you in my prayers. You are a strong person. You could not have gone thru the surgery and lost the weight if you were not. You will beat this. You will have so many people praying for you there is no way you will fail.Keep us posted please.