Exited for surgeries tomorrow!
Thanks so much for the big HUGS. I am a lot of different emotions rolled into one big ball. I am scared because I am afraid that this will fail or I will fail at my attempt. I am nervous only because I would like to just be a bouncy ball and be ready to walk walk walk without any discomfort. I know this is not going to happen though. And then lastly I am doubting if this is even the wisest decision even though I know it is the only thing that will help me achieve my goal in life and that is to regain a healthy life without a medicine cabinet 2 times a day. I was telling my husband a couple of hours ago that I thought it was a good thing regaining about 4-5 pounds. I have attempted my lifestyle change and managed to lose about 25 pounds now. I had lost about 30 at the beginning of last week. Well I don't know what happened it could be some water gain because I had salty ham a couple days ago and my feet are a little more swollen the last few days but I managed to pick up about 4 pounds again. Not much and I have not given in to the head issues and blow what I have been attempting to do. I am scared and am afraid I will be the 1st and only one to follow what they tell me to do because I know I can make those lifestyle changes and still not lose any weight that will eventually give me the freedom from health issues that have me chained to all my medicines daily.