August.. Hooray! Not...

This is has to be probably the worst months I've had in a long time... Not so much weight loss stuff, but life in general... My new job, that I love, the last 2 weeks has been murder... I haven't had a project (program) go right at all... Mainly because I was given the wrong information that our clients wanted, something our BA's suppose to do properly... But a couple things I had mental lapses and made some minor mistakes as well. On top of that, I'm working with an ancient computer, trying to do programs and report our clients' sometime need in a 24-48 hour swing. Talk about system lag. People in my department just say it is an initiation phase, everyone goes through it. To top off the bad two weeks, Saturday I received a phone call with some devastating news. The director that we work for, that is the nicest guy, probably one of the most helpful bosses anybody could ever have, just one of those people everyone wants to work for went to the ER. His diagnosis Brain tumor. I've only known the man for 8 months, but it has really got me in the blue. Our whole department is beside themselves and feeling a heavy heart. They choose not to operate because the test came back malignant. So continuing on with my great month, I now have some sort of allergy or sinus cold that has had my throat extreme sore since Thursday... Today it sort of felt better, but I have had like zero sleep from it. And for the topper, I have a friend that seems to have forgotten about me or wrote me off... I'm mainly just puzzled why... Sort of hurts when you get close to a friend and they just shut you out. Oh well, I don't post to much anymore, but guess I needed to vent some and you all were the kind audience that had to bear it.

Dirk, Sorry to hear about all the problems that you have been experiencing. All I can say, that life will get better in every way possible. Years ago, back in the early 70's, I had an uncle that was diagnosed with a brain tumor, and yes he had to take early disability, but he did live until approx 1996. So hopefully, this will happen to your boss. With all this said, just continue to be a good employee and friend to him, no matter what. If you do not tell your friends about the trials and tribulations that you are feeling or are going through...how can we lift you in our prayers?? So dont feel guilty about venting !! Norma

Thanks Norma, Unfortunately, I don't think it is looking good. Found out the cancer is the size of a golf ball.. It is spreading pretty fast. I think it is "glioblastoma multiforme" Stage 4, but not positive on that. Makes work hard, cause you miss him around, he likes to tell stories and just talk. Caught myself getting a bit misty eyed a couple times...

Well, you came to the right audience. Man Dirk...this HAS been a tough month. When nothing seems to go right at work, it can sure make your work feel off kilter...add to that the other stresses you are going through, it's not surprising that you are feeling blue. I too have a very dear friend that has chosen to cut me off. It's very painful and when you don't know why, it's frustrating as well. It's almost like the loss of a loved one. I certainly wish for improved health for your director. I hope your month makes a turnaround for you, and here's to a MUCH better September. Take care of you Dirk! Tami

Heya Tami, Thanks... Well maybe Sept will be better, thinking about the luncheon on the 9th, really depends though... I know I always say I will try, but will see

Hey Stranger... I have been away from the boards for awhile too....just trying to get my fix lately.... WOW...I am so sorry for your month...not good...I will say a prayer for you for strength...I know it will get better...it is just the tenacity in between that needs to be had..... I have a friend who wrote me off too...about a year ago...it hurts a lot and is sad....this is the second time in our 20 year relationship....I have a feeling that it had to do with me having surgery and she was my "fat" friend my whole life....I hate it but I would not turn back taking care of me....no way no how! Keep in touch and hope to see you at a gathering one day..I have had problems making it lately...my weekends have been jamm packed for so long.... Take care, Ann

Heya Ann, I guess I just feel a bit used by this friend after looking back at it... but oh well, doesn't matter I guess. Must of not been a real friendship afterall. I mainly just want to hear the reasoning behind it more then anything. Anyways, I peek the boards occasionally and I have noticed your new man.. Rock on And hah, now you know how I feel about making weekend meetings... Dirk

Hey buddy.... I am so sorry about your friend...I truly believe in the thing that people are in and out of our lives for certain reasons....it stinks sometimes but I know time ultimately heals....I am the same way on the reasons...I just want to know WHY my friend wrote me off....I don't get it..... Thanks for the note on Nate...he is an awesome man....its been almost 4 months of dating and he just keeps getting more wonderful everyday...we will see where we land.... I am hoping to make the next meeting now that it is on the 16th....woooohooooo! Can you make it???? Take care stranger, Ann