I am getting cold feet.....

I am getting cold feet. My surgery is set for Sept. 8 which is Thursday. It seems like that is all I can think about. The what if's. I would not want my boys to be left alone if something were to happen to me. I am all they have! I can't stop think about the breathing tube that they will be putting in my throat. I don't want my boys to worry. I am feeling like everyday I spend with them has to mean something in case something happens to me so they will remember me. I am i just nuts or I am having normal feeling. I know I have to do this for my health and it not a question of if I want to have the bypass because I do. I am just scared to be put to sleep Cheryl

Hi Cheryl, your feeling are normal I went thru the same thing good news is that when they put the tub in your already asleep you don't even know it was there b/c when you wake up it is gone so other than a little scratchy thoat there is not a problem... I was so scared to I told everyone how much I loved them and ask for prayers from all and knowing that I was in gods hands and there is no better place to be that gave me comfort. I came thru with no problem Ihad my surgerry on 6/15/05 and have lost right at 60 pounds so far feeling great I do have some days that are so so and feel tired but those are few and I would do this all over again...I look at my self now and see someone that ready to go out and shop and be seen I now am 1/2 to my goal and 3/4 to the dr.s so I am happy that I did this and I try and tried to keep a possitive out look.. I will keep you in my prayers and want to wish you a quick recovery and a happy life ... I am sure that you will be fine an learn to love your new life..... CYNDEE

Thank you for your support it was much needed! Cheryl

Hi hun...ever read the wls timeline? If not, I'd highly suggest it - many seem to find it calming both preop and postop. HUGS and good luck! http://bariatricbytes.com/Timeline.html

you are 100% normal... and in fact..if you wernt scared...i would be worryed hugs alexa

Cheryl, I wasn't quite so nervous about having the surgery (I've had 4 other major surgeries) but I wanted my family to know how much I loved them, just in case I was one of those rare cases that had major complications. So I wrote them letters, which I sealed and placed in our family Bible. I told my hubby that if something happened to me, he was to distribute the letters. One of the things I put in every letter was something about how I knew wls was my last, best hope for a normal life and that no matter what happened, I had made a very well informed decision and I didn't want them to have any regrets. It made me cry to write those letters, but I felt such peace, knowing they would have a tangible reminder of how much I love them and that they would know I was at peace about my decision to have wls. Hang in there and you'll be joining us on the losing side before you know it! Vickie J.

Boy do I understand your thoughts. What can I say to help. Where will you be in 5 years without the surgery help. Will you be around for your boys. Will you be here but always sitting on the sideline unable to be active or particiapate. Enough of that. Ask me anything about tubes down your throat. I was one of those people that sometimes put tubes down into your lungs to help people breath. I have have 4 tubes down my throat to help me breath. The worst was a slight sore throat. Not as bad and the sore throat from a tonsilectomy or strep throat. but eveyone that will help you in the hospital ONLY want you to get well, be safe and go home as soon as it is safe. If I can help, ask me anything. Best on your journey. I have one more hoop to jump and then my surgery. I may be posting the same thoughts as you. best thoughts dj

Hi Cheryl: Being nervous is completely normal. Fearing the unknown is always a little disconcerting. Just think though how soon, very, very soon, you'll be on your way to be healthy and active! It's a wonderful road ahead! Best of luck. Melissa & Dan

Cheryl, Your not nuts, I thought the night before surgery I was going to have to call dr y and tell him I wasn't gonna be there. But let me tell you I wouldn't go back now for anything. Friday will be my 3months out and I go to see dr Y that day to weigh in so I will make sure with him everything went great with your surgery. Oh about the tube down your throat don't even worry the anistesiologist (spelling) that Dr Y uses is great, he gave my a couple of shots when they were wheeling me out of pre op and into the OR and the last think i remember was moving from the gurney to the operating table, next thing i know I was being wheeled in to my room. I wasn't even sure they had done it or not.... But don't beat your self up over this you have choosen a great surgeon and i have all faith that he will do a wonderful job on you. So keep your head up in two days you will be on the losing side and never look back Jennifer