Steve, it must be pretty depressing not knowing what your future holds. I'm sorry they're putting you through all of this, but if they didn't think you were valuable, you would have been gone a long time ago.

No need to tell you to stay positive, you're just that kind of guy anyway. So, hang in there the best you can.

Hugs to ya!

grab the tequila and salt.....

I over slept.....did not start my monday as planned.......so I started it at noon.......

coffee instead of coke......going to walk my Italian greyhound around the lake.....would take the shih tzu...be he is too dumb to walk on a leash and the big junky dog ( rott, shepherd and who knows what ) is too big for me to walk......she will walk me.......

ok....NO COKE...... is my Mantra for the day...NO COKE

I need to clean out my closet......I have a ton of wonderful too small clothes....some naughty...like fish net stocking and school girl skirts and knee high boots......oooohhhh la la

No coke

My head hurts....its not caffiene I am addicted to......its some screwed up emotional bond with coke......caffiene does not keep me awake or give me a jolt of energy.....I guess because my cokes have never hurt me.....never cheated on me, never left me and never hit me.....stupid huh??? I can take caffiene pills and my headache is still there.....I can drink a pepsi  (which i despise) and it is still there....tea.....coffee.....headache......uggggggghhhhh

ok so anyhow.....if I do not make a million changes today...thats ok.....I am going slow to be more productive in this whole thing. This is worse than pre-op days.

I may not get to the gym today but if I clean my closet or walk the dog thats more than I did yesterday......I have to not rush this......baby steps.

I am sorry I am babbling.....I am actually crying as I type because I dont want anyone to go thru this, I want you all to learn from my situation. This is harder than in the beginning as well as pre op days.....My head has all these thoughts.....my body has cravings for that familiar taste.

ok.... I have to get out of this house

bye
tammy..........

I'm still working, though I still haven't been given a permanent assignment.   It can't continue like this much longer.   I expect to hear something pretty soon.  Just don't know what.

What great weather for August here in Arkansas. I'm loving it!!! Sure makes it nice to get out and go for those morning walks.  Walked my threes miles this morning, came home drink a gazillion glass of water, took a shower and drank my protein drink. Laid out some shrimp for lunch. Doing laundry and cleaning the house today. So busy day for me. Spent a lot of time outside this weekend. Cleaned up both vehicles yesterday. Hubby started mowing yesterday evening and will finish up this evening.  Went to the lake saturday and visited with my daughter that was camping with some friends. It was sooooo nice over there. Good breeze blowing. Watched a most beautiful sunset then came home.
Hope everyone has a good day!!!!

Hi Susan,

Congrats on getting those extra 2# back off.   You continue to inspire with your diligence.

It was a beautiful weekend and I took advantage of it and moved as much as I could.  Unfortunately on Sat I made one wrong swing of the golf club and pulled my back out.  Nothing serious, just some pain and knots.  It's happened before and it will happen again.  It's already improving, but keeping me slowed a bit.  Should be fine within the week if it does as usual. 

Have to go to the dentist today to finish up my new crown.   Not much else to report. 

Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend.