Valorie, Shawn, Wanda and all the wonderful people on this board, Well, I don't know if I'm ready but I'll be glad when it's time to be knocked out so I can quit worrying about this surgery! Oh, I have agonized over doing this! We leave this morning after dropping the dogs and cat off at their luxury spa!!! We toured it the other day and they have it made. The cat can even spend a few hours a day in the dog's suite and he has a nice 2 story place of his own plus hours of running free in the cat room too! We are taking the laptop so I'll probably check in tonight and I'll show Hank how to log off to send a message to you guys! Pray or send good thoughts! The surgery starts at 10:30 tomorrow morning! CeCe

Thanks, Valorie, for those words of encouragement and support!! I'm glad I was able to recognize that destructive behavior and it didn't take me years to see the problem!! Actually, after talking with my personal trainer, I have decided that is what I would like to do (outside of my present job, that is). BUT - I need to get into better shape if I want to show someone else how it is done! And my trainer agrees! So she is helping me by kicking my butt into shape!! Your posts have helped me more than you will ever know! In fact, sometimes I wondered if YOU weren't inside my head!! They sounded like they could come right out of my mouth!! But I'm glad you had the courage to post, it helped me to reach out also. Keep up the good work, you have strength and courage which I admire greatly. Just wanted you to know that! You will always be my hero! Thanks again, Deidrah

Thanks so much for the encouragement and support, Wanda! It's really helped me stay on track now that I know I have to be accountable for my bad days!! It's nice to know I do have someone (a whole bunch of someones) to turn to, especially when things are pretty dark!! Deidrah

And today was one of my worst days too... I had Subway for lunch... then I had half a candy bar... then some wine. then some sweet tarts..... OMG!!!!!!! How bad is that... Oh and I forgot about the pringles in there.... You are so right about old habits being easily resurrected..... With money being tight it is even easier to fall into old habits because it is cheaper... KWIM???? Well, anyway.. I have been volunteered to host Easter dinner at my tiny little house... so I have to get through a good cleaning and then cooking and preparing and THEN I will get my butt back on track... I promise.... For now I just have to get the darn bills paid.... and take care of the kiddos..... Thanks so much for your support... I will post more about all that is going on next week sometime.... HuGS to You, Shawn M.

{{{{{hug}}}}} Shawn, I know how you must be feeling. Old habits die hard and are so easily resurrected. You know what you have to do. You know the way back. You just have to commit to doing it. You CAN and WILL succeed. We are here to listen and help. Always just a post away. Valorie