Hi Lori- i thumbed errrr scrolled through your profile- you look great in the pics in front of your new house..Congratulations to you!! Keep up working hard.. One day I am going to get to ONEderland and join you.. Donna 325/212/ 145

HiYA!! How is everyone? Haven't posted but have responded to posts..We are on the eve of our surgery month.For those that know me- Im usually so positive and motivated. And I hate to say it, Im depresed and nothing seems to be going right. It was my birhtday 7/16 and I turned 50. I sometimes wonder if that is really bothering me or the fact that so many seem to be close to goal or in Onderland and I am not. I feel very frustrated and feel like Im the only one this surgery isn't working for. Its not rational, but more emotional. For my birthday- I had a gathering of friends- all WLS patients- at different places- mostly all before me- one friend - a day after me- and they are GREAT- and mostly into sizes 8-12-14; shorter and taller than me. My mom and son hung out with us and it really was a great time..HOWEVER- after the party my mom says - out of everyone you are still the biggest. It made me feel like **** and obviously it still bothers me. It took me 2 wks to tell her- then she said- I was kidding. She wasn't. She is 90 and has always said things like that to me. You KNOW there is always someone that adds insult to injury and in this case its my mother. My whole life she's been like that. I'm at work and in tears about this. Life is too short and I refuse to feel sorry for myself - yet at the same time I feel devastated. This entire weekend I was stressed- My son decided to take a trip to Chicago- and I told him to leave today- but he wanted to leave Saturday- and guess what? We get all the way to LaGuardia- in record heat- and the flight was delayed. He also has to take AMtrak- so he had a connecting train- and it was sold out all day Sunday- so guess what? The airlines delayed the flight. They had people trying to get out since Thursday and my son had to reschedule till TODAY anyway. He calls me from the airport today- he's 2 hrs early and guess what? They tell him again- the flight was cancelled. Long story short- he got off on time and will make his Amtrak connection today.. So I worked out at the gym yesterday- for along time &felt really good when I left. It seems the only place I do feel I fit in. Mom has been visiting me 2 weeks - and I feel strangled. She helps me and doesn't. Today I found all 3 Isopure bottles out of the fridge, for the 2nd time.. I asked her why- "becuz you have iced tea to drink". Between her and my son I have been so stressed and came to work with a huge headache. The other thing that is depressing me is- being single just really sucks. Inherently I know Ive made progress. Then I attend clubs or singles stuff and see so many women who are younger or thinner than I am, and think- I'm never going to meet someone. (Yet if I attend the old BBW parties- Im too small & guys aren't interested).I go to over 30s events and iInvariably the guys I do meet are wrong or the ones I like, don't call. I have my profile online on a few sites-including Match.com, and its really tough. So many guys scam with outdated or fake pics. I wonder where the really attractive guys and nice men are? Plus I've had (like a) crush on a guy who lives in Canada and we've become good friends or so I thought. He has been very supportive- and advising me on nutrition and fitness and other stuff- always in my corner. Ive done some really nice things for him & his kids when he was down & low. (He survived cancer, is good looking and divorced0. All he sent me was an email for my birthday- I got mad at him for not calling.There is a lot to it- andI don't think it was a lot to expect. We email and chat more than most people talk - and now we're not communicating either. I came to the conclusion that I was more invested in this relationship. Its also 2yrs we've known each other in August. I know our problems don't go away when we have surgery, but I don't think its me, because I try and put effort into things. I don't think its too much to expect, when I think I do so much for people that matter to me. I feel like the only person I matter to is my son- and he does try to make me happy. I appreciate my son and what he brings into my life, but its not the same. I feel really unloved. I don't know how to stop beating myself up over the stuff I haven't accomplished. I got dressed today in misses sz 16 white capris and white printed shirt and thought I looked great. YET I am a mess. I feel so alone and it just really stings. I just don't know how to deal with this or if I'm just overwhelming myself emotionally. Anyone have thoughts? Thanks- Donna

Well, i made the century club months ago according to my highest weight. But as of today I am down 100 lbs from my Pre-Op weight according to my surgeon. So i've gone from my highest of 311 to now 201 From Size 28 to a 17/18 From a 46 DDD to a 38DD I dont know how i do the century club thing. Any ideas? D. White

Lori, You look AWESOME ................ Glad to see some updated pics....don't you love seeing the transformation??? Keep up the great work Tammy 291/284/182/164 surgeons goal/145 my goal

Hi Tammy, Look out world Tammy's is on her way to being a babealishous chick. I hope I spelled that right if not you girls know what I mean. Go Tammy go, look out here she comes. I'm so proud of you, you really encourage me and make me want to do the right things, but some times I just don't have enough time to do everything I need to do. But lady you keep up the good work and keep encouraging all of us to do the right thing and someday we will all look back and say we did it. Take care Carolyn Jc C. 284/188/ 4 pounds to go until onerland!!