Hi Renee'~ First of all, let me just give you a big ((((((((hug)))))))). It's all going to be alright. The road HAS gotten tough, and we are now out of the honeymoon stage. I think all of us have gotten comfortable, especially since we compare our now-selves to our then-selves and see the big differences. I really don't think you've lost control, I just think that you are having to learn how to manage it...the new you, the appetite, the carbs and sugar, and the portion sizes, and the exercise. Having something to help motivate me has helped with the exercise part~ like an event or a race or something. I can guarantee you that I wouldn't be out walking between 3-11 miles every couple of days if I wasn't training for that 1/2 marathon. If it was just for myself, it's too easy to just blow it off. Hang in there, I know that you can get back on track! You're doing great! Hugs, Kerri

I guess the jokes on me today: Venti Sugar Free Triple Decaf Vanilla Latte 1 vanilla almond biscotti A Banana Farewell luncheon: 1 crab ball, 1/2 grilled chicken breast, some chili w/cheese and about 4-5 tortilla chips. THEN IT HIT ME.... THE TROTS.....HORRIBLE..... I was in the bathroom forever and the people who were standing outside the bathroom door talking, were still there when i finally came out....AND when I went in and out the next two times, they were STILL standing there... Like, how embarrassing is that??? So I thought I ate something that was making me dump..... I finally get back to my desk and I have a message from my little one's school. Bradley threw up after lunch and was in the nurses office. So I go get my little man and we came home sick together. So besides the water and crackers I've gotten in this evening - I'm willing to bet anything i had this morning is a big fat ZERO since it didn't stay in long enough for my body to snatch any nutrients or calories out of. Doesn't that just bite??? I had a good time at the luncheon...felt fine....was laughing it up....even joking about how it sucked to go back to the office on such a beautiful day and "couldn't we just call it a day?" and then BLAM!!! Sheesh! I'm gonna have to learn to watch my mouth. Who wants to call it a day on a beautiful day and spend it locked in on the throne? I hope it's gone in the morning.... Hope everyone else is doing much better today... Hugs, Pam

Thanks, Diane.... that Hug was great!

Hey Loves, This road has gotten tough. I appreciate you all that are honest with the struggle and reality of this new found lifestyle. I find myself slipping at times. I'm in a 14/16 and some 18's. I have become comfortable................. I have gotten okay with my size(coming from a 28/30). I eat to much at times... and not the right things. I know that alot has changed but I never want to be where I was. I love me............ but wonder, have I lost control? Renee'

Ahhh, Pam~ You're too sweet!! I wish your high school friends could see you now! Boy, would they be shocked, huh? If you have a chance to get on a bike, you should do it. I was shocked how much easier it was than I had remembered~ all except that nasty hill that we had to walk up! Great idea, again, about the protein train. We'll keep chugging along, saying, "I think I can, I think I can!" Hugs, Kerri