I don't see it.. my theory

Hey all, So, I look at all of these people who post pictures and my eyes fill with tears of joy for them. Everyone is going along so very well. I also am losing steadily and am down about 88 pounds. The weird thing is, I know my clothes are smaller, and I know I am "looking terrific", I hear that a lot as I am sure you do!! But I don't actually SEE IT when I look in the mirror. Here is my theory on the whole thing.. I think that I never REALLY saw myself as I was pre-surgery. If I had, I probably would have run screaming into the night! When I looked into a mirror about 30 pounds ago, I thought I always looked like that. Now, you know that simply can't be. 50 pounds is no drop in the bucket! I think somehow I had diluted myself into thinking I was hiding that 334 pound somewhere...or "carrying it well". How funny. Perhaps it isn't possible to get a true vision of oneself. Now, I look at my face and I can see how much I resemble other (thinner) family members, so I know I look different. I have to admit the fact that I never really knew what I looked like before and it makes me even more thankful that I had this surgery and can snap back into reality! Best of continued luck to all. Look at yourself...you're beautiful!! Rossana RNY 6/13/05 334/246/???

WHAT a lovely theory AND trust me your not alone. I dont see my looses either going from 310 the day i met my surgeon to 205 now. I hope it kicks in soon and i also havent bought new clothes, i had XL's in my closet that i fit into so i imagine the day i shop for the new clothes maybe then ill see it clearer. BUT i DO know i have MORE energy then i have had in sometime and thats a wonderful thing. GOOD LUCK! AND best wishes for continued sucess! lisa

I agree 100%!!! I truly did not want to realize how awful and bloated i looked. I thought i was pretty hot stuff and woudl not look full length at myself and hid in most phots and wouldn't keep photos of me in my fat glory around. I think we prtect ourselves from reality. I am right there with you! Lets just put DITTO after your sentiments for me. Good Luck-- Paula

Hi Rossana It has been a few weeks since I have posted or even been on the site but I am glad I did tonight I agree with you 100% I do not see a different person and I am still having a rough time buying new clothes- and cannot understand why my old clothes are so big- Keep up the good work! d