blues anyone????

YEs here i ago again junebugs. IS it just me or are others of you expereincing DEPRESSION. I mean I lost 101 lbs why arent i sooo happy....dancing all over. IN stead i find myself a very down. SURE i have alot of other problems in life going on but i dont know im in a funk that wont leave me. THOUGHT it was the 9 days of rain but that has lifted and im still down. SO anyone else feeling soo???? THANKS for the replies! ITS nice to know we do experience similar things.... lisa

Hi Lisa, congratulations on your fantastic weight loss. I have lost around 70 pounds and am feeling so much better. I too struggle from time to time with being down and then it will suddenly lift. I think our bodies have been through so much and it will continue to effect us emotionally. It is such a big change! I am learning that I am dealing much more with handling my emotions then evidently I did before when I dealt with them by eating!! Exercising helps me when I feel this way. Also, I joined Curves before I had my surgery and still continue to go. It is really lots of fun. Fellowship with others in my same boat helps me also. I pray that you will feel better soon. I do think the weather can affect us in a major way too. I know I feel better when the sun is shinning. Another thing, actually getting outdoors and getting some sun helps you emotionally also. Take care and God Bless you. Sincerely, LMW

Lisa, You are not alone. I think everyone gets down from time to time, but I have definitely noticed more ups and downs after surgery. I had a major breakdown last week. I was bummed out for a few days from stress with work, school and having issues with my slower weight loss when my mother ended up in the hospital. I totally lost it that day and cried on an ex's shoulder. But after I got the crying out I was still very emotional. It was like I was having the worse PMS ever. My poor ex could do NOTHING right, everything he did or said just annoyed the heck out of me. It eventually passed and the ex is still alive so I guess all is well.....lol Lisa

Hi Lisa, You are not alone my dear. For three weeks, up until this past weekend I was feeling the same way. Crabby, tired, weepy. I just couldn't understand it. I also realized during that time just how much of an emotional eater I was before my surgery. Now it is physically impossible to just stuff my face when down or crabby or board, and to be honest, having to feel my feelings has been quite an adjustment (for everyone). Our bodies have been through so much trauma, from the surgery to controlled starvation. I just don't think it's unusual to feel down or depressed during this process. When I finally started to talk about how I was feeling, to whoever would listen, I started feeling better. I think this process is like giving birth. We are so excited and happy about the new baby, then bam, we just get emotional. Our bodies are changing almost every single day (or week), so it's no wonder we get emotional. Give it some time, talk to us, talk to anyone who will listen. Write things down, keep a journal if you have to (I use my profile to journal). You will feel better, I promise. And if you don't, or if you feel like the depression is worse, please don't hesitate to see you primary care doctor. There is good medication to help. With all the changes in our bodies it wouldn't surprise me if our brain chemistry didn't get out of balance as well. Lisa, I'm also so happy for your 101 lbs lost. You are knocking on the door of onederland for sure. If you need to talk email me and I'll send you my number. God bless and take care. Love, Debra 239/182/125

Lisa, Hun I am so glad I peeked in there and read what you said, I have been going through the same thing lately, OMG sometimes when I get upset at something I want to ripe someones head off. I laugh but I have to tell you I feel myself changing and I am really thankful for what Debra said above because it sure helps to chat about this! I know for me I would eat when I am feeling pissed off, angry, upset or just about any reason and now I can't! I guess it angers me to not be able to eat and maybe I should go see someone to deal with this but this sure does help to be able to talk about it. I hate to bring it up on the board because I hate to be negative but the journey is not all wine and roses.... so Lisa I am glad you had the courage to start this thread....THANKS Debra P

YES those are good points that we are ridding an old habit COMFORT eating that i never game much thought to either. I am finding myself very blue, weepy and maybe thats part of it i dont have my comfort food. I just find my moods are very bad, im not smileing often...sure i have problems in my life but i figured being down 101 lbs i would be HAPPY. Im so mixed up about hom im feeling but its good to know im not alone. I dont think im moruning food that happened proly right after the surgery. I am working out alot so that is supposed to help moods elivate......but im not as happy as i thought i would. I then thought well is it thte hair thing? but sure i know im looseing my hair thinning but others dont so i dont think that would cause me a big downer......guess its just another phase we will go thru! Still this is worth it just hope true happiness finds it way to me, and soon. THANKS guys! LISA

Lisa, I also have to add that I sometimes feel that my weight loss is slowing down, which it is but I am adding more too but I still get upset to think that I will be able to eat more and more as times goes by. It is so very scary to me because I am so scared of going back to my old ways. I would like to think that I have it under control now but it can creep back in so easily and that worrys me. This whole thing is so worth is and I do not want to scare others but it does take some getting used to. We can only do our best hun and if you want to chat just email me your numbers and I will send you mine. It might help as well. ~Hugs~ Debra P

YES DEBBIE my weight loss is moveng along VERY slow...i think i loose about 1/2 lb a day. sometimes none. We run neck and neck so i know i know what you feel. WHEN ever you get a move in the scale so do i ...and when we both hover at the same weight here and there its incync. I do worry to alot about gaining and not looseing all i need to loose. I have had hunger from the beginning and i feel i eat way to much. BUT for that i try to focus on the BIG weight number instead of the daily 1/2 pound or none. I do stay away from cookies, cakes and real sweets and never even attempted to find out if i dum*****t. I am scared to be that percentage that doesnt dump. THEN ill be in major trouble. I also have the big visual problem that i still see myself at the 300 me not the 209 number. Its hard. I should probably buy some new clothes instead of wearing 2x's that are to big. I read a post somewhere today on the board too about people that know people who gained alot back 2 to 3 years post op and i dont want to be that way. I so hope i have permenently changed my eating haibts to more healthy ones. ANd that i am giving up emotional eating. I think i have to also work on the main thing that causes me to eat for comfort...and mabye if thats fixed i will be better. Its not an easy out as so many think. BUT right now the blues are getting the best of me when i thought i should be dancing around the house happy, I am not. I am more confident at times but other times im not. SURE i post happy on the board in hopes to help my moods and keep me on track but inside im not as happy as i thought i would be at this point of my weight loss. GO FIGURE.... thanks for the replies... IT helps! HUGS back at u deb LISA

Lisa, yeah I think we will have to deal with this for the rest of our lives, just like any addict has too. I guess I will try and focus on the hear and now and not worry about what "might" happen, believe in ourselves that we can change and it will happen. I know how your feeling with the depression and I know it is not the head hunger that I got right after surgery but if we keep talking about it from time to time we should be fine. ~Hugs you~ We are all in this together so we will make the best of it. Debra P

Lisa, I also have depression times. Lots of rain has always been difficult for me. I need the sunshine (!) in more ways than one!!! I find it so comforting to read my thoughts under someone else's name. We are a true community in that we do experience the same stuff. Unfortunately, depression is one of those common ailments. (Although, I do remember being depressed about being so big also.) This time, being smaller can be kinda difficult at times. I'm happy with the weight loss (62.5 pounds) but I miss my habit of "eating at" whatever bothers me - good times & bad times. I am having to learn new habits. Exercise is a great new habit for me. I had slacked off for the last couple of months & started back this week. It really felt good being on the treadmill! Go figure, I never thought those words would come from MY mouth. However, enough of my rambling, have a great & blessed day. Remember to count your blessings as we all have many!