I need some support or help or a kick in the a@@!!!

I am having a BAD day. Well just when it comes to eating. I wont say too much cause I have spys watching me but I need to get this off my chest. I cant seem to get full and I havent been making the best choices. I dont know why. I cant seem to get back on track today. I mean I have not been perfect but I never this bad. I just dont know how to turn down temptation sometimes. I want to be "normal" and be able to eat with everyone but then again I want to be thin and healthy and food is not worth what you get from it. So then why do I want to eat crap? I feel 1000xs better now that I have lost 65lbs. I havent been this small in like 6 years and I weigh 285. I dont know. Tomorrow I promise to get my but in gear. Only good stuff in and make sure I do my walking like I should. I jus thought if I got this all out it would make me get on track. DOES ANYONE ELSE FELL LIKE THIS???? AM I THE ONLY ONE???? You guys are my rock and I dont know if I could make this journey without your help. Thanks LaDonna

La Donna I have had hungry days and what seems to help me is having a protein shake, the one that seems to fill me up the best is Locarb chocolate milk with a scoop of chocolate protien powder and crushed ice in the blender, it gets really thick and there is a lot to drink, takes away the hunger. Don't get down on yourself this is a learning process and we have to give ourselves time to adjust to all the changes and everyday is a new day, so tomorrow just start fresh. Heres a (((((hug)))))) hope you feel better soon!!! Trish

Hi LaDonna, smile sweety you are not alone, I was a bad girl today I was at my moms most of the day worked out in the pool after breakfast/before lunch /after lunch , then all of a sudden it was 6pm and I was starving, like I havnt ever felt before, so I had 4 crackers , and a small salad to hold me over till I got home, well my mom had company and they brought over a Pepperage Farms cake and I swiped the icing off the top of the box, I felt so bad, but it tasted so good then she says to me take it home for the kids so I did and when I got home I decided to actually have a piece, it wasnt big(1 inch) but it was satisfying, well about 15 minutes later I dumped! It was the first time and I felt so bad I had to lay down and close my eyes for an hour, ask me if I will do it again???? No WAY! I have had alot of things that weren't on my plan but were healthy foods but never Dumped before, I thought I was one of the lucky ones NOT! So dont beat yourself up, or be unprepared ok! If your hungry try to have a Protien shake handy I didnt today because I ran out, otherwise I would have had one and been fine. Well thats my Confession..hahahahah Hugz Mary

Ahhhhh, Sweetie . . . You are not alone in this department! I haven't been back to the Boards in weeks, so I am trying to catch up to all the messages. I have found myself in your position on numerous occasions over the past several weeks, and I think the reason that I've had all those BAD days is because I had been GRAZING instead of sitting down to 3-4 REAL MEALS! I've also discovered that the more I WALK, the less I EAT! That's right, when I am more active, I do not want to stop to eat!!! I can't believe it myself, but it's true. Even if you only walk for 15 minutes (walk 8 minutes out, and 7 minutes back), you will feel sooooo much better about yourself. But, above all, NO MORE KICKING YOURSELF IN THE REAR, YOU HEAR ME? Just pick yourself up, offer up a prayer to God, and start over again. No one knows what you put into your mouth except YOU, and no one else has to suffer the dumping that comes with your poor food choices BUT YOU, so try not to worry if other people are looking over your shoulder. It is NOBODY'S BUSINESS BUT YOUR OWN what you put in your mouth. You will never be able to eat "normal" again, that is to say, your new "normal" is what's normal for you now. I used to love to be able to eat whatever I wanted, but have found that with my new pouch, a LOT of the foods I used to enjoy don't taste/feel as good as they once did. Your tastes change, LaDonna. I can still eat a piece of brownie, but not the whole pan because I WILL dump! Allow yourself a taste of what ever it is you want. Some foods will no longer agree with you, others will still be your favorites. After you've experienced the pain in the ass (literally) of dumping your now-former "favorite" foods, you will no longer consider them a favorite, believe me! I hope that this helps, my dear. I wish you all the best, and I KNOW that you will be feeling better about yourself soon. I'll keep you in my prayers! Rita

LaDonna, Sorry to hear you are having the crazy cravings ... I had them until I changed my eating schedule. At first I was eating 3 meals and three snacks a day. I was not drinking but about 32 oz to 48 oz a day. What I do now is drink 20 oz of water int he morning when I first get up and drink it as fast as I can . (water gouging) I exercise and then drink a Carb Solutions Chocolate Protein Shake, drinking it as fast as i can (within 10-15 min). I wait an hour and a half and then drink crystal light, juice, tea, lemonade w/splenda, or water. I drink about 32 oz over the next few hours and at first I gulp quite a bit down to fill up my pouch. At lunch time, I eat meat and a little veggies. Fruit if there is a desire for it. I wait another hour and a half and start back drinking. I drink up til 15 minutes before I eat an afternoon snack of Vanilla Egg Custard, watermelon etc... I soon thereafter drink another protein shake. After waiting an hour and a half, I start back drinking until dinner time and stop 15 minutes before hand and eat meat, veggies, 2 tablespoons of starch if I cook one... I also eat 2 spoonfuls of dessert some days or a 1/2 piece of bread. After waiting one and a half hours, I start back drinking and make my last food intake a protein shake. This has really helped with the hunger. If you gulp down a lot of water fast, and then sip the rest, you feel FULL... Then by only letting 15 minutes pass before you eat, you will not eat as much food and will stay full for an hour or so after eating. It helps to slow down the emptying of your pouch. Do not beat yourself up if you falloff the wagon. Just try to pick heavy foods, like a piece of meat instead of light easy to digest foods that will not stay with you long. Drinking the shake fast helps to fill up your pouch and it will take a while for it to empty. You do not feel hungry for a while.... The key is to fill up your pouch fast and then let it slowly empty. Good Luck ! VAL

LaDonna, first of all stop blaming yourself. There is no blame here. You are ok. Listen, our new tiny pouches help us to lose the weight, but they do not change the way we think about food. You have gotten some great advice here about managing the physical aspects of eating behavior, i.e., real hunger. But what about the emotional/psychological aspects? Have you considered what may be "eating" you that perhaps may be causing you to make bad food choices? The red flag I see is when you say "...I won't say too much cause I have spys watchcing me..." I can't help but wonder if those around you are creating you to be anxious by how they are treating you, and anxiety can certainly cause people to eat to sooth rather than eat to sustain. I would ask the people that you love and whom obviously love you to just support you. Tell them that by policing your eating behavior, they are making you feel bad, and those bad feelings make you crave food that comforts you! Tell them if they really want to help, they can take a walk with you or do any kind of fun exercise with you. Most importantly, they need to simply love you and trust you, unconditionally. You'll be ok, sweetie, just be honest with the people who are in this with you, ok? God bless and be well, Maureen