What kind of person will you be?

When I first married my husband 12 years ago, I had just started to gain a little weight. We went to the movies one day and in the seats a few isles ahead of us was a heavy woman of about 230 lbs, I looked at my husband and said, if I ever get that big, please shot me! Well, since then, I have been taught a lesson. I try not to judge and I do not comment about matters of other people that I know nothing about. I have topped the scales as 268 and by the grace of god and this surgery am currently today at 222 lbs and losing. I know that when people see me a few isles up they do not know that my weight gain came from years of loss and pain, only that I am the fat woman they fear and never want to be. I was also cruel to my sister growing up because she was overweight and I regret that with all my heart now- she knows that also. She is overweight and tried to get wls but was denied, she went on to lose 120 lbs on her own ( from 320 lbs to 200 lbs currently) and she knows how proud I am of her. I can't say I am thankful I was overweight for 10 years but I can say I am thankful for knowing what it feels like to be hurt and nevering wanting to hurt anyone again. This life can be so hard, let's find a little room for acceptance and peace and we will all be happier.