Okay I'd like to kick you both in the butt......but well I just don't have the energy and that would be calling the kettle black. Sigh. I think to some degree we are all going through this. Holly please don't be embarrased. That's what we are all here for. This is the hardest part. Funny how the losing was the easy part and now we start the hard part. Now is when we really really need to stick together. I do agree with Suz though. Get rid of the cigs. Just another addiction you don't need to have to kick later on. I think it is great that you are going to keep both appointments and yes a trainer will help you get motivated. I need some of that motivation myself. I am really having to make myself go workout. About the only thing doing it for me is I am having plastics in July and I want no need to be as tone as possible. It is so hard for me to not say what the hell he is going to cut it all off any way right. LOL what a hoot. No...no...no. It will look much better if there is muscle under there not flab. So I keep on trucking. It has been hard this last month though because of the migraines. Those are slowely getting under control but they have me on Topomax which makes me sleepy.....ugh can't win for losing. Can someone just kick me in the rear???? Please???? I am saying a prayer for the both of you and Holly I am extremely happy that it is only 10 lbs heck girl that could be water weight....well 5lbs anyway. Anna

I would like to change this post title to postings from a total dork- weighed myself today and am up only 10 pounds- although not great- definitely not the tragedy I thought that the 20 pound gain would be... I am still keeping both appointments today and will keep you posted... dorkly yours- Holly

Hello all my weight loss buddies! I have had a tremendous change in my life. I started a new job 2 months ago and received a huge pay raise and better insurance. I am now working from home and have been off schedule when it comes to my exercising. I keep saying when the weather is nice and what not, but I need to be pushed to get outside and exercise and to chose better foods for myself. I have found that I can eat "normally" again. Not before, but what is desinated as "Normal" portion sizes. I feel full with that. I need to reduce my intake and start exercising again. I got down to 144 but that was when I was really sick. I got to 150 and stayed for a while, then it slowly went to 153 then 155 and now I am struggling from 158-162 these last few weeks. I want to get back down to 150 and I will be fine with that. I have been struggling with hypoglicemia. I think that is spelled correctly. My mom gave me her diabetes machine and my sugar has been between 48 and 60's. I bought sugar tablets to assist instead of buying a candy bar to increase my sugar. I have an appointment to see the doctor and do a fasting test. I'm not sure what is going to happen. I also need to change my birthcontrol because I am not morbidly obese anymore and the depo shot will have a huge effect on my bone density and may promote osteopenia or osteoporosis. But any advice would be wonderful. I need to start posting in her like I did before. But after changing jobs, I have been adjusting to all the new tasks that come along with it. Thanks for any support and I am back on track again! Love to you all as we have all come down a rocky road and now things are smooth but we need to be aware that we can be knocked off this smooth trail and back up to that rocky road!

Hey Janie, how are you doing? Feeling much better I hope!! Anna

It 's great that you were able to treat yourself. You deserve it. Yes, post a pic for us to see!