be under 200 lbs before the end of the year.

10/12/08

I got my 10% Award at WW yesterday. I have lost over 24 lbs since I started.

I am down to 217.something. I don't remember exactly and my WW stuff is still in the car and I just don't want to get up right now to get it.

I will change my ticker when I do.

I still feel kind of guilty at WW because no one there, except Hubby and my mom, know I have the band. They are soooo anti-wls that I didn't tell anyone.

And I still have to watch my food, make good choices and exercise just like everyone else on WW. So I know it shouldn't really make me feel funny. Yet it does.

My mom even made a snide comment about it the other day. She said something about well SOME people still get hungry, not everyone has had their stomach stapled. I just stared at her. She KNOWS how hard I still struggle and it is not just EASY. And please, stapled?-that was back in the 70's.

I just walked away.

Anyway - 10%! Go me!

9/30/08

I have felt the need to increase my activity level. I don't mean that I want to exercise more, because I hate exercising. But I want to do more THINGS, if you know what I mean.

I start yoga on saturday. It is a one hour class. It is twice a week, but I am going to start with once a week and then work up.

I am looking into a martial arts class. I would love to be able to defend myself without my gun.

In light of all this extra activity, and its potential bounciness and being upside down, I have been on a quest for a good sports bra.

And it has not been easy.

I am a 38DDD. I used to be busting out of a 48DDD. DD=E and DDD=F so I probably should have been in a 48G or H. So with about 60lbs left to go, I don't have much hope of losing too much more boob.

Anyway, sports bras just don't come that size. I guess they figure if your THAT big, you don't need to be trying anything that requires a sports bra. I had the same trouble when I started seriously hiking. Women's sports clothes don't come in 2X or 3X. I had to wear mens.

I found something close. A good, supportive, underwired DD. It is called Maia Bra, Moving Comfort. I got mine at Academy for $35 but I just Googled it and Runningwarehouse.com has it for $30.

Since it is a DD and I need a DDD, if I wear just it, I bloop out the sides. But when I put it on over my regular bra - BINGO.

Worth every penny.

9/18/08

Not only were there NO Krispy Kreme's eaten at work today - and there were 3 boxes of them - But also, I am sitting here eating my fish like a good little banded weight watcher and NOT eating the spaghetti with sausage sauce that I made for dinner for the skinny people in the house.

Skinny PERSON - which would be my daughter.

9/16/08

I had a band appointment last week. I had lost 12 lbs from my previous appointment. I didn't ask for a fill. I thought I was doing ok.

And I was. Until I TOM kicked in. It just. IS. NOT. FAIR.

I didn't go to far off the deep end. We went out for Chinese one night. And I ate 2 plates. I hate it when I do that. I know I don't have restriction at my TOM, I should know better than to eat out. I know I can eat more than I should, so I do.

And the worst part....the food wasn't good. I still want Chinese. But now I want GOOD Chinese.

And I always retain water like the Hoover Dam.

I am still going to the gym. I am still walking on my lunch hour 3 or 4 times a week.

I am TRYING to get back from "the deep end". My TOM is over, but now I have the residual hungry. I am back to eating less again, TRYING TRYING TRYING, but now it is not filling me up and I AM HUNGRY.

I do not like hungry. GO AWAY HUNGRY. Hungry makes me do bad things.

I am going to give it a week and see if it gets better. If not I am scheduling an appointment for a small tweak.

9/7/08
Man I hate exercising.

I'm not even sure why I hate it. It's not the sweating - I don't care if I get sweaty, I can take a shower. It's not the time - it gets me out of the house to do something. It's not the monotony of it - I watch TV at the gym while I'm there.

So what? I don't know. It's like a chore, it's something I have to do - like going to work - whether I like it or not.

If I watch what I eat, I lose a little bit here, a little bit there. If I exercise, but don't watch what I eat so much, I maintain.

But when I watch what I eat AND exercise, I lose quite a bit here and a lot there.

I had not exercised in several weeks. About a week and a half ago I started walking 1 mile on my lunch time. Again. And I was eating good.

Yesterday's weigh in - I lost 7.6 lbs.

Man I love exercising!